Yessss! I finished finals last week! Celebrated Grandma's birthday Friday, went to my other Grandma's, left from LB airport to SF Saturday, orientation, came back same day. Celebrated my cousin's birthday, passed out, woke up, swap meet, mall, etc, Christmas shopping. So much random stress going on lately. At least I'm done with Saddleback yessss! ( Read more... )

Dunno why I'm in this mood. Last week of Saddleback this week. I don't ever go on the internet anymore but tonight I can't sleep and I'm bored ... probably cuz I never do anything.

Fuck this mood. Fuck Christmas. Fuck the OC migration to San Fran. Fuck hippies and bums. Fuck users. Fuck kiss assers. Fuck having nothing to do. Fuck bordom. Peace out ( Read more... )

I ate way too much spaghetti squash at dinner and I'm soo full. Ew. At dinner we discussed tuition and my dad asked "Are you excited?"

I almost started crying because I'm so fucking scared. I've worked SOOO hard to get into SFSU and actually follow through and lately I've been seeing EVERYONE on the fucking internet saying they want to or are ( Read more... )

I've been pulling all nighters, basically hanging out in the library, checking out more books than I'm even allowed to, and studying 24/7 yet I'm still really behind. And for some reason it's just what I do now and it doesn't even phase me.

My dad has been being the hugest asshole ever though and it's frustrating as fuck. He tells me that I'm ( Read more... )

That I'm moving to San Francisco in just over 3 monthes.

It hit me when I was shopping for coats, talking to an old friend about fucking 5 block raves up there, when I added it to my myspace schools (hahaha and the messages slowly began), when I noticed friends talking about visiting me ... Yes slowly it's crept up. Also I find it weird and a tiny ( Read more... )

Suddenly I'm almost paralysed with fear everytime I go anywhere alone at night. Even within my own house. I had an interview with the Cheif of Police at Saddleback for my News Writing class and he told us about the Robbin Brandley murder on Saddleback's campus.

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"Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect, it means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections."

It's really fucking hard to look beyond my own imperfections when I have to look right at them every fucking dayyy in the mirror. And it's really hard for me to even escape my imperfections because it feels like in public everyone else sees ( Read more... )

I don't know why I'm updating this cuz I haven't done anything at all lately.

I have been spending every waking moment cleaning my room for some reason.

It's really fun ... I find old stuff that I used to find depressing and I find it funny now. hahaha

Gaaah I have a shit load of homework I'm working on right now.

I can only concentrate at night.

I ( Read more... )

No one means what they say
And you can tell as clear as deep-sea fish
All internal organs and glowing eyes
I've been good, I've been busy
I've realized my friend's true intentions
Cut all ties
I've been doing ten thousand pushups a day

Someone just woke me up to tell me that Steve Irwin died. Tragic. So I didn't believe it and I searched the internet and pretty much came to the conclusion that it's true. You heard it here first. Sting rays are bad ass mother fuckers.