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HBD to ME
Okay so I AM... 27..... wow. weird number. It didn't look like it was turning out to be a good one already, but things are going in the right direction. Happy Happy Happy! Glad I'm able to enjoy this day. I'm going to try to visit my grandfather today if he is feeling well or doesn't have dialysis. And visit my parents gravesite. I think ( Read more... ) -
I don't get TIME...
Some days I feel like I'm all the way in... all the way in to bouncing back from where I was before. Then other days I feel like I'm just coasting or accepting what my role has been for the last few years. I thank God for my sister because if it wasn't for her I think I would believe I am all the negative things I assume people think about me. I ( Read more... ) -
If u believe it then its SUPPOSED to be done, by faith.
Why can't I stay in a positive frame of mind. I try hard. I focus on it. I meditate. I pray. I keep a smile on my face. I reach out. I Try. I don't just try. I do it. So WHY is it so hard for me to stay positive now. The things that are possible don't happen. and even the impossible never miraculously happens. I'm so frustrated right ( Read more... ) -
Working my way around that...
So the day was good. The night as well. I feel tired and I'm hoping I will go to sleep earlier than my usual 3 AM time like I have been all week for some odd reason. I guess my mind has really been pressing me to vent out a little frustration so here I go ( Read more... ) -
Another one down n WHO's PREGNANT?!?
I can't believe how long I take to write in here, but besides that I've been on a good track getting back to all the things that keep me focused. I think I've finally found something that comes too easy to me. That I can't get enough of...... What's that you ask me? Or did I just ask myself that. Okay umm... Yeah. So anyway I'm pretty good at ( Read more... ) -
Things I need to recognize
In my time on this beautiful little planet I have come to know that only one thing is promised. And yes my friend that is Death. But along the way I have noticed there are a few other things that you might pick up along the way just like any other being that was created to inhabit this big meat factory. If you are one of the lucky ones you get to ( Read more... ) -
Back to what works
Im sitting here smoking, about to take my oldest niece to the movies. Im just as excited as her! This is probably the first time I get to take her out with it being just me and her since she was a baby. Since my mom was alive...which is a good 4 years. Usually I have uninvited company that seems to always make a way on to our plans. Now it's ( Read more... )
