Beau.

[brigidsdaughter]

I will never get the chance to make amends.

Beau was, apparently, older than I'd been told.

Those taking care of him for me had to make the hard choice to put him down.  So...my Beau...is gone, now.

RIP, Beau Justice.

I'm sorry.  You have no idea...how sorry.

Comments

[catwithclaws]

oh noes :( I'm so damned sorry. but at least coming from a rescue position, he had more and more good care in his final years.

[lurath]

Oh man, I'm so sorry! Just keep reminding yourself that you made his life better-there's no need to make amends. **hug**

[brigidsdaughter]

It's just...I left him behind! Yes, I did what I could to make sure he was in a good place after--he was thoroughly spoiled living with the polo ponies--but I still...left him behind. He was always terribly people oriented, and liked to have people that were 'his'. Well, 'his' person left. And now his person feels profoundly guilty.

He was my first horse, I wasn't at all prepared to let go of him yet. It's one thing to KNOW that a horse is old and might not be around long. It's another to think that he's 17 and still has some years left for you to enjoy him being a charming bastard.

[lurath]

I know about that kind of guilt. My old cat that I just put down this February was sick for a long time, but my parents weren't caring for him properly. I berated them about taking him to the vet more often and really wanted to have him (and his sister) come live with me. I KNOW if I had gotten him a year sooner I would have been able to save him, or at least make him more comfortable. Instead, by the time I put my foot down and took them, he was too sick. So yeah... guilt. And anger towards my family for not giving him all the chances he deserved. I was "his" person too

[milestogo13]

I'm certain his memories of you were fond ones, and his final years were happy ones, thanks largely to you. I'm very sorry though. *massive hugs*

[saiban]

Oh no! I've been off LJ for about a year, and seeing this makes me so sad! You know you didn't leave him behind-- what else could you do? You put him in a place that you knew would take care of him and you kept track of him. Made sure he had what he needed. I know he never thought of you as abandoning him-- horses understand these funny things, I know they do. *HUGS* You were always his person no matter where you were!

[jadex3]

My condolences, I know he meant a lot to you...