the red hours

[brightlotusmoon]

A highly personal ramble that I know a few people will understand.
I do not make friends-locked entries because this is my journal, and if I am going to lay myself bare and open, I will. If people choose to read and comment, they are welcome to it. I'm just like that.
Yes, everything is okay. Sometimes I just need to vent.

Comments

[sezurei]

I think this is a lovely thing. I understand your 'no friends lock policy' even though I can't live by it.

I sincerely hope you can find the balance between keeping yourself sane and growing away from bad habits, into things that are healthy for you. Habits can be as simple as thought patterns.
I've very much enjoyed your high and consistent level of honesty in your journal and it's one of the reasons why I enjoy reading it so much.
♥

[brightlotusmoon]

Thank you, that's encouraging. Some people might say that I should talk to a therapist about this, but really I just need to talk to people who know me best and understand where I am and where I've been.

[todabrilla]

I love your icon. You have a very nice spleen.

Fear

[suzanna_o]

I don't know if the song you listed was metaphorically what you're thinking of, or what you really were listening to, but I think it helps describe an emotion that is common to many of us.
"I fear I have nothing to give, I have so much to lose..."

Anyway, keep yourself well.

Re: Fear

[brightlotusmoon]

Yes, the song was exactly how I was thinking. It's a very common thing indeed, and I'm actually relieved that I can recognize and work with mine now. At least, trying to work with it. ;p