Goodbye, my little precious one. I love you.

[brightlotusmoon]

It's Friday now, the day after, and the world is still the same.
I think that for a very long time, the two things I will remember most about last night are that her eyes were open the entire time, and the liquid in the euthanasia syringe was pink.

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[armandii]

I'm so sorry

[ronin_lethe]

*sobbing*
i feel l ike i have been crying for days, i can't even imagine how you feel.
i'm so sorry.
i'll be there tonight.

i love you.

[brightlotusmoon]

Empty.
Filled.
Nothingness.

I love you. I'll see you tonight.

[stainedpaper]

You did the right thing. But reading this is making me cry. I almost didn't read it because I knew I'd cry. I'm so sorry.

[brightlotusmoon]

Thank you. I know it was for the best, but...
Well, you know.

[cwjennifer]

Gods but that's tough. I'm so sorry. I'm proud of you, though, for doing what was best for Tuesday, even though it was what was most difficult for you.

[brightlotusmoon]

Thank you so much.

No matter how "for the best it feels"

[illusionmajik]

It still hurts
Hugs
I know how much it does hurt

Im here if you need it
Love and strenght to you and yours, for giving one of gaias great creatures a loving beautiful home and a remarkable family.

Tuesday was truly a blessed cat.

Re: No matter how "for the best it feels"

[brightlotusmoon]

Thank you. Thank you.
Can I call you this weekend, if I need to? I think I have your number; I keep forgetting to program it into my cell...

Re: No matter how "for the best it feels"

[illusionmajik]

You can call me anytime
No matter what. But I may have to call you back if I'm in the shower or something.

Something that may help with the hurt (and feel free to say 'screw that, it's dumb') is to make an ancestors altar (you can do with with just a piece of posterboard and photos.) ONe of my teachers told me the basics of doing a ancestors alter. I added my own spin to it.

Take pictures of all that you have loved and lost (including pets!) and make a huge collage commemorating them. Make sure that no one alive is pictured there. (trust me on this) You can then post it somewhere and from time to time, talk to them all. Its a way to honour them and it helps to see them "smiling and watching over you"

It could help

Love and strenght to you my friend. Now and always

Re: No matter how "for the best it feels"

[brightlotusmoon]

That sounds like a lovely idea. It may take a while, as I need to find photos of some of the relatives like the grandparents and my dad's siblings and my half-sister and my first boyfriend... but I could do that. Thank you. :)