Of kitties and mommas..

[brightillusions]

So for the past couple nights, Sal and I have been hearing a kitten cry. And that's not uncommon here, but this sounded like a baby, and one that was lost. So I went searching and of course it's on the second floor, stuck but a tree with non stable branches (I already tried climbing it). So the next day we didn't hear nothing so I figured it got

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[brightillusions]

I think at the moment I need to be reminded that I cannot make life altering decisions. It's too soon and too much upheaval. And any outside advice is always welcomed and appreciated. You are such a help to me.

*HUGS*

[cerulean_breeze]

Your grief will run it's course, it's normal and healthy to grieve for about 6 months like this. It's only after that amount of time that people need to think about getting help elsewhere (I read up about it after my uncle died). So you're entitled to feel whatever you're feeling at the moment. Just do what you need to do and know that we love you.

*hugs*

[becky_monster]

I can't offer much in the way of advice or anything else, bar good thoughts but...

I think you're working along the right lines - worry about yourself and to heck with everyone else right now.

You need time to grieve, pure and simple. The human race is going nowhere (unless someone else knows otherwise?) it will still be there when you're ready to rejoin it.

Until then - do what you gotta do and take care of yourself.

[brightillusions]

Good thoughts do much more good than expected. I'm glad when people say they don't know how I feel, or don't know what I'm going through. That's good news because you've still got your mom. That makes me happy.

I keep trying to remind myself that this isn't a quick fix and I have to play it out. Of course the grief reminds me of that, when it catches me off guard and makes me cry while I'm ringing someone up at the register because she's buying her daughter flip flops.

One of the hardest things to realize is that the world doesn't stop, and selfishly I so want it to, to stop and acknowledge my pain and my mom's absence.

*HUGS*

[abbybeth]

It's okay to let yourself feel. You're such a caring person that it's natural for you to get wrapped up in how everyone else is feeling, but don't discount your own.

I don't have much for advice other than that. I don't think that Sal should be relying on you for financial support one way or the other - he needs to be a responsible adult.

Hang in there. Cuddle Teegan. Get yourself the new baby kitten out of that tree.(I expect pictures once you've won her/him over!) It's not easy, but things will eventually get better.

[brightillusions]

Oh honey he's not. I swear, I don't believe in that, at all. If he needed my help I'd help him because I love him, but I don't give him money, or pay his bills or anything. He's just here being with me, and I think I painted a negative picture that I shouldn't have. I think really it's my emotions and not understanding what to do that's bouncing off of him. In any situation like this, I would have gone to my mom for the best course of action. Now I have to find my way myself.

Sal never lets me pay, and was always bringing food and stuff home for mom and I before. He hasn't been able to find a job, but my friends husband has a pretty good one lined up here in the next month or so. That's why I haven't asked him to move in because I can't pay for the both of us.

I'd love to cuddle Teegan but she'd rather use me as her latest spare rib dinner so I am giving her her space. As for the kitten up a tree, I can't get to it, and apparently neither can anyone else because it's still there. I really wanted it too.