"I should write about this in my LJ" pt 2 AND pt 3

[branchlimbs]

(Intro: Being that I can't seem to make the previous entry appear at the top of the feed and reflect the edits I tried to make, I'm going to continue this in consecutive entries, or "sections" or "parts")

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[ext_2029242]

The Getty pays for photos? I didn't know that. Pretty cool.

I like the photo with the lighted stair case the best.

[iatrogenicmyth]

Just so you know, this entry is marked public. Didn't know if you meant it to be so.

You are the most photogenic girl I've ever encountered on LJ. Pretty soon you're going to have stock icons all over LiveJournal!

But you do look a bit underweight. Especially in the one of your back and the one where you're laying down. I hope you're staying healthy. I know how easily a person can move from one obsession to another. And you've struggled too hard to fall.

You inspire me, Joy. Your resilience and determination and self-awareness inspires me.

thanks for having my back =)

[branchlimbs]

I thought I'd switch it up a bit... then again, you don't know what damage publicizing your thoughts has caused until it's already done. Maybe I'll friends-only it again.
In any case, my next entry will most certainly NOT be public, and I REALLY need you to read and respond to it. I'm struggling.

As for my weight - it's always been below average, although it dropped dangerously a few times... the worst was actually the photo above the one where my ribs were showing. I know it looks bad, but those ribs are photo-shop enhanced. The one where my back is showing, I always thought that looked a little bony as well... anyway, these days I'm doing my best to be healthy... it's really difficult to make ends meet, so I don't buy groceries as much as I should, but when I do, I make sure to get nutrient- and protein- high stuff.

Okay, I'm going to write that entry that I alluded to above. I wish you could read it straight out of my mind - articulating this is going to be hard.