Three things about Lee Adama
For the character meme, dionusia asked for three things about 'Lee, post-Resurrection Ship'. They grew into longer snippets because I fail at being concise. I promised these to dionusia and I like to keep my promises--but they come with a serious Leemo warning, k? ;-)
1. Hard day for dreaming ( Lee: post-Resurrection Ship, Epiphanies )
1. Hard day for dreaming ( Lee: post-Resurrection Ship, Epiphanies )
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However, I'm feeling guilty because you did both -- eep! It was supposed to be either/or! But I'm incredibly grateful nevertheless.
All of the post-RS ones are just gut-wrenching, but this might be my favorite part:
How could he explain this to anyone? Kara was the only person he might have been able to tell, but when he attempted it, he had seen in her eyes that she didn't understand. That door had closed: she was dismissive of his 'space walk' now, joking about something that made her uncomfortable. He'd been wrong to burden anyone with that. He should know to keep his own counsel on these things by now. The knot thickens.This part especially breaks my heart because I can see him interpreting things that way, whereas I'm writing from Kara's POV and I think she feels both frightened by his remarks and really helpless at knowing how to deal with them, so she does the best she can, quickly addressing the ( ... )
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Yay! *hugs* Please don't worry--I thought both prompts were so interesting once I started mulling them over, I couldn't choose between them. I wanted to write Zak's funeral and I wanted to write the post-RS stuff, so I just did both.
she does the best she can, quickly addressing the surface issue (I let you down/Look, it was fine, it turns out I didn't need your help anyway) -- and later realizes that she really messed up
Ohh, I know Kara did the best she could! It's funny writing from Lee's pov because I had to completely ignore Kara--not just my usual cluelessness regarding her, but Lee's limited view of her. I was never sure if Kara knew she'd messed up with him, but it sounds like the piece you're writing is really interesting and a sympathetic view of her.
I'm glad you liked them! (I know they were bleak.)
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Are you kidding me? I loved them, and tragedy is my field of study. (Plus, I gave you one of the darkest periods possible, with the post-RS prompt!)
Okay, I'm back and finally able to comment on the rest:
I am really glad you went for the Gianne/Shevon topic in post-RS #2 - so many would rather ignore that storyline completely because the ep itself had problems, but you show how interesting it could have been had they laid the groundwork before (or explored it in more depth after)! This is my absolute favorite line:
Sometimes he feels like he's outside himself, watching someone else's life--it's how he felt after he ejected from the Blackbird.
It’s so hard for Lee to drag himself onward, and this captures how he just goes through the motions of everyday routine while still feeling out of control of his own mind.
Was that all she really wanted? Was that all he needed to do? Was he enough?The way you wrote this scene made so much sense to me, because I think he’s just wanted ( ... )
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It really really could have been, and as a Lee fan I confess I really kind of secretly like it. It's like a CRIME in fandom to admit that! Especially among K/L shippers because it might seem to threaten Kara, but I don't see anything as threatening Kara's central significance to Lee. If he doesn't consider her in the landscape of his relationships it's because he's got her in the unattainable/untouchable/too significant to risk losing category in his mind.
he just goes through the motions of everyday routine while still feeling out of control of his own mind.
Yes. What I would like to be able to convey is the fact that Lee is seriously depressed but is also a high-functioning depressive--he knows how to hide his condition and keep going, but that doesn't lessen its severity for him. In some ways it makes it more dangerous ( ... )
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So many don't or won't see past the surface with him, which seems so unfair considering how many seem to be able to do so with Kara. In fairness to her, she IS much more external than Lee...but...there's so much going on with him that many choose to ignore.
I love getting inside his mind and what you've created here makes the picture that much easier to see.
Excellent, excellent job!
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So many don't or won't see past the surface with him, which seems so unfair considering how many seem to be able to do so with Kara
I feel that too. He is harder work than Kara in many ways (though I'm personally baffled by her quite often!), but I'm still surprised so many people skim past him, because, as you say, there is so much going on there. Such complex characters are still rare enough on television to feel precious to me.
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No I'm not! Nothing to see here! Look, it's tagged 'meme'! Hush you! *waves you along* ;-)
especially the one about Zak's funeral--that one made me feel *so* bad for him.
I really wanted to write that one. I wasn't sure it would be very sympathetic though, since I can't help feeling for Kara in that scene, actually. She was holding the truth about the events leading up to Zak's death to herself and I can imagine her taking Lee's words personally and torturing herself twice over--that she was responsible for the grief in the family and then for their implosion as well. But I'm totally glad it did work as sympathetic to Lee, because lots of people seem to dismiss his anger at his father in the mini series as over-the-top, but I think it speaks not just about Zak's death but their whole history and dynamic.
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Ooh, "minutiae" is one of my favorite words!
I love love LOVE these, K. For someone who claims not to write fic, you get into his brain so very well. Thanks so much for sharing, and now I have a craving for Academy!Pilots. ;)
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It was an interesting exercise and I did enjoy it, but I'm still chronically uncomfortable with creative writing. I'm delighted you got a kick out of them though. I very nearly filtered it to Denise alone, but then decided I shouldn't be so feardie. *g*
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