i dont think i have had reality hit me so hard until yesterday when i looked at the calendar and realized i am going to be a mom in 7 weeks maybe sooner then that this little one can come any time now and not have any problems. whoa!! then i have someone talking about pizza and i want some so bad ahh!!!! cravings they suck when you have no money or ( Read more... )

i hate being by myself! it not fair for me to keep chris in the house just becuase i cant do to much. i just want someone to talk to but no one cares anymore. i dont see anyone anymore. i wont be alone when my beatiful baby boy is here. ill hold him and talk to him all day long and then me and him can take trips to the mall. oh well. nothing more ( Read more... )

i hate foot ball and superbowl is even worse! i didnt get to bed until 1:20 this morning. im so tired. although i did have a good time last night my cousin from NY came up my house last night and chilled. that was cool although his lunatic mother came up here looking for him in a cab!!! to funny.

8 weeks and 2 days its really not that long but still to long for me i cannot wait until i push this baby out, i am getting more and more miserable. i feel like a beach ball. i just cant wait to hold him.

why am i always put in the middle of things? its very hard when you are stuck defending two families when you have one of your own on the way. i hate this im told to just think of whats best for the baby and i have been, but then thats why i am stuck in the middle. my mother has jelousy issues and i know when my son is old enough to understand he ( Read more... )

im just impatient now i want him out and here but i need the baby shower to hurry up and get here because i have nothing here for him. i want to buy so much things but i cant because i dont know what other people got him but i am going to start buying things for his first easter basket.cant wait. anyways heartburn sucks!

okay first it was warm and rainy now its just chilly and windy it hate this weather i wish it was sping time or summer time i hate winter if there isnt going to be any snow!!! anyways its just another day so lets see how this one goes. i wonder who is going to annoy me today

why is it no one calls you all day long but as soon as you go to sleep or at least try to thats when everyone wants to call at once. i was in a bad mood but after the doctors apt today things got better. i thought i had diabetes but i dont, i thought i had to get an iron transfusion but i dont, the baby weighs 3pounds and i dropped (it wont be long ( Read more... )

ok today would be a good day but that fact that i was up all night yelling at people to be quiet makes it very tiring. some people just have no respect for any one or their things. if i wasnt 7 months pregnant i probly would have beaten the hell out of them but they also looked like they were 12. i dont know but if i was in someones house and i ( Read more... )

well we never made it to the comedy club. we get downtown and they tell us when we get to the door that they were full so everyone ended up at my house. wow was that NOT fun. im just not in the mood to party or have parties in my house. so anyways new years eve wasnt better. i just wish sometimes i could have some of my friends hang out with me ( Read more... )