The blood is running down my hands. There is no way to stop it ( Read more... )

I havent eaten in two days; I haven't slept in three. My sinuses burn, i cant concentrate on anything. Nothing seems to matter.
MY shrink is gonna have a field day tomorrow.

I hate phones i hate them with a passion. Yet, I wish that i could simply....pick it up and call people. There's so much more I need to say to people then can be expressed through Instant Message or Memos or what-the-fuck -ever. It would save me the futility of simply sitting in my room yelling at my wall (which is actually not all that different ( Read more... )

Wow. i had something happen to me last night that hasn't happened to me in a long time. I started to miss people. Not just miss as in I wanted to go hang out with them; I'm talking about the type of miss thats connected to romanticism, the kind which hurts me the most ( Read more... )

I have nothing to do
(but plenty of people to do it with).
     Spring break leaves a lot to be desired. I'm not going to any fun places, I just sit here and think. I have a lot to think about.
      And all the thoughts revolve around the one person who I am willing to change for, the one person who's ever made me feel "whole".

It's so ( Read more... )

I just got a call from my favorite uncle out of Houston. Apparently we can buy a family plot at the cremation wall for 1000 dollars.

He has congestive heart failure.

And Im 4500 miles away.

Do you ever stop to think about those that you hurt? Has it ever occured to you that other people breathe and feel just the same that you do, that they are fragile and not pawns? Or are we all just pieces in a game to you ( Read more... )

I'm tired of being toyed with. I dont know what draws me to her, I honestly dont, but I wish she'd either take it or leave it. I dont care if she takes me as her boyfriend; if she ahs commitment issues, i can understand, even respect that.

I just want her to stop playing with me. Life's hard enough.

Just once, just one time, I would like to go with a movie with some friends and not watch someone I love stick their tongue into the sole person that i hate's mouth. Just fucking once.

People say the silent treatment is childish. This isnt a treatment.

I woke up this morning colder than I have ever been in my life. Wait, backtrack. I phased in this morning colder and hungrier than I can ever remember being.
You cant wake up without going to sleep first.

I don't know why something so trivial has such a dramatic affect on me ( Read more... )