An overwhelming feeling of grief struck me a few hours ago.
Everything has stopped.
I can't speak.
I can't think.
I can hardly move.

Does he regret it?

It's consuming everything now.
I can't breathe.

 I couldn't do it anymore ( Read more... )

for the 28 minutes i was able to sleep last night, i dreamt that my rabbit was still alive. i woke up feeling empty, more than usual ( Read more... )

 So as much as I try to make Epic Summer 2008 epic, it's getting more and more difficult. I wish all this would clear up and go away, I wish we could all grow up and stop hiding behind useless excuses. It makes sense to a certain degree, but not to this. We were all friends at one point, we both care(d) about each other greatly, I don't understand ( Read more... )

 now i'm starting to regret everything.

everything.

how / why did i let myself get into this situation?

 i put it out there. i put myself out there. now i am waiting. this is the most vulnerable i have ever been. all my nervous habits have escalated threefold. this anticipation is killing me. i am hoping for the best but expecting the worst. i hope i have prepared myself enough.

response? something. anything.

please.

i think everything will be better in India 

 i realized how pathetic i have been when it comes to important conversation, one in particular. i've been putting it off for far too long, always with an excuse to cover the fact that i'm  absolutely terrified of being turned down and left out ( Read more... )

 the view from the roof of the Junípero Serra Museum is one of the most beautiful things i have ever seen.