Girly girl or tomboy?
Busy, busy, busy. And not so much in the mood for journalling as it is suddenly summer... Regardless of the fact that officially, spring hasn't even arrived yet! Today we had record-breaking temps. On the news they said it was the warmest March 12 since 1954. I want to go down to Pedro tomorrow and stay for the day. Hang out at the park, down to the tidepools, sacred lunch at Tokyo Grill and maybe back down to the little private beach to sunbathe. I still feel sun-hungry, more so than I have in a long, long time. I see an actual tan in my future. Wheeeeeee! I've been sitting out to read for lunch and I see that my hair is getting lighter already and looks thicker and healthier. After not having consciously tanned for years, I feel it's an okay thing to do again - in limited amounts wearing my SPF30. I *am* scared of skin cancer but also feel that some sun does me good. I feel myself enter a phase of increased vanity -- the past years I preferred the natural look after I had worn full makeup for years. The California sun and the bright light make powder and makeup look really gross so I stopped for the most part these past few years and made it special occasions only.
I've always been torn on the subject of "beauty" and what it entails, what's expected of you as a woman. I've never been a girly girl. I was a tomboy. I'm rather balanced when it comes to {assumed} male and female traits and dominant brain halves. But I look
feminine by default. This is where the conflict lies, and always has really. I don't want to be stereotyped as some shallow little girly girl, not taken serious and blonde to boot, except that it's actually natural and I'm not one of these fake blonde clones with skunk streaks {TM, lol}. The skunk hair cracks me up, especially when it's clear that the person is actually dark-haired. It looks ridiculous. 20 years from now, they will all hide their pictures like it's done with 80's hair and 70's clothes. Mark my words, lol.
Anyway, point is that I've always looked more feminine than I felt. Fake boobs? No thanks, *definitely* not necessary here, haha. Wearing supergirly clothes and doing all the little lotions and potions and makeup and hair and everything else just increases the womanly look for me and I never felt comfortable with that. So I've tended to tone it down a bit instead by making different choices. Or so it has been until now. I'm 1 of the 5 women on earth who won't get crazy excited about shoe shopping or clothes shopping and while I do my nails, I've never been to a salon. I roll my eyes at people who have absolutely noooooooo other concerns than their looks. And I'm not talking about taking care of oneself, trying to look good etc. I also think it's great when people look like they're COMFORTABLE in their clothes and feel good about themselves, regardless of what these clothes might be. But I'm talking about the total fashion victims who have no own identity, consider COSMO their bible. The ones who shriek in terror when they break a nail and declare that their day is ruined. Or maybe it's their week? Brainless and so not my world. So much of it in L.A. -- even though it's not like there are no other people here. So I'm none of the above, at the same time I'm far from the butch, granola, hippie stereotypes. I'm not sure where people would sort me. Not that it really matters. But there's a conflict in this and I think I'm not the only {thinking, professional} woman who feels that way.
To the women on my list - Do you feel more girly or more tomboyish, or maybe neutral? Has this changed throughout your life? And to the guys - Do you feel more masculine, more feminine, neither, both?
What do you think is expected of you?
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I've always been torn on the subject of "beauty" and what it entails, what's expected of you as a woman. I've never been a girly girl. I was a tomboy. I'm rather balanced when it comes to {assumed} male and female traits and dominant brain halves. But I look
feminine by default. This is where the conflict lies, and always has really. I don't want to be stereotyped as some shallow little girly girl, not taken serious and blonde to boot, except that it's actually natural and I'm not one of these fake blonde clones with skunk streaks {TM, lol}. The skunk hair cracks me up, especially when it's clear that the person is actually dark-haired. It looks ridiculous. 20 years from now, they will all hide their pictures like it's done with 80's hair and 70's clothes. Mark my words, lol.
Anyway, point is that I've always looked more feminine than I felt. Fake boobs? No thanks, *definitely* not necessary here, haha. Wearing supergirly clothes and doing all the little lotions and potions and makeup and hair and everything else just increases the womanly look for me and I never felt comfortable with that. So I've tended to tone it down a bit instead by making different choices. Or so it has been until now. I'm 1 of the 5 women on earth who won't get crazy excited about shoe shopping or clothes shopping and while I do my nails, I've never been to a salon. I roll my eyes at people who have absolutely noooooooo other concerns than their looks. And I'm not talking about taking care of oneself, trying to look good etc. I also think it's great when people look like they're COMFORTABLE in their clothes and feel good about themselves, regardless of what these clothes might be. But I'm talking about the total fashion victims who have no own identity, consider COSMO their bible. The ones who shriek in terror when they break a nail and declare that their day is ruined. Or maybe it's their week? Brainless and so not my world. So much of it in L.A. -- even though it's not like there are no other people here. So I'm none of the above, at the same time I'm far from the butch, granola, hippie stereotypes. I'm not sure where people would sort me. Not that it really matters. But there's a conflict in this and I think I'm not the only {thinking, professional} woman who feels that way.
To the women on my list - Do you feel more girly or more tomboyish, or maybe neutral? Has this changed throughout your life? And to the guys - Do you feel more masculine, more feminine, neither, both?
What do you think is expected of you?
^^