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Array 028 [Voice/Video] [Filtered from the Joker, Kurotsuchi, and Trisha Elric]

Sep 26, 2008 01:40

[The feed clicks up in the dark, and Alphonse seems to be outside, sitting by the riverbank. The moon is full enough to see by, and there's the sound of rushing water, very nearby. He smiles just barely, and when he breathes, his breath fogs in the air. Thankfully he's dressed in a warm sweater, although he shivers now and again. Though it's hard ( Read more... )

stupid sexy vampire, what am i going to do, mother, asking for advice, *event: voices from the past, coming out, *affected, secrets oh yes~, thinking out loud, halp, alone time

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[Text; Private] feline_sonata September 26 2008, 08:17:32 UTC

Al...Al.

Look. She loves you...I'm sure of it, and I know you are, too. She's not going to love you any less.

Tell her. That's what I think. Just sit down and tell her.

[Voice; Private] bloodseal_soul September 26 2008, 08:23:06 UTC

I'm scared. I'm scared of her walking away. I'm scared of seeing in her eyes what I saw in Ed's.

... she thinks I'm wonderful and she thinks the world of me... and I'm so scared. I don't want to break that up for her. I don't want her to think I'm bad or that she screwed up somehow...

... I'm scared, Ollie.

Ed walked away from me... when he found out. He walked away. He didn't come back for a long time, but I saw something in his eyes, I--

[Al's voice breaks.]

... I never want to see that with her... what... what if she doesn't love me anymore...?

[Text; Private] Strikes Gone feline_sonata September 26 2008, 08:28:00 UTC

Alphonse. She en't going to stop loving you. Even if she needs to think on it for a little while, she en't going to leave.

Would it help if you had someone there, with you? I

I could do that, you know. I'll stand there with you, you need it. Okay?

She loves you, Alphonse. There en't nothing that is gunna change that, okay?

Nothing.

[Voice; Private] bloodseal_soul September 26 2008, 08:38:01 UTC

... N-no. I want to be alone, right now.

Ollie... thank you. That means a lot.

Doesn't stop me from being scared to death.

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[Same filter] braided_genius September 26 2008, 08:18:26 UTC

Hey Al?

You've told me - even if it was by accident, I'm sure you would've said something sooner than later... I hope - I think that was the hardest part.

You should just tell her, what more can ya do? We've already admitted our sins and mistakes... this... it'll be okay.

[Same Filter] bloodseal_soul September 26 2008, 08:26:32 UTC

... what if she doesn't love me as much as you do?

[1/2] braided_genius September 26 2008, 08:27:53 UTC

[2/2] braided_genius September 26 2008, 08:30:57 UTC

What?!

What the hell are you talking about Al?! You're letting this get to your head, damn it.

OF COURSE SHE LOVES YOU AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU - Probably.. probably more.

Al, you can tell her anything...

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albatross_river September 26 2008, 09:06:23 UTC

Do you think she maybe knows?

Maybe you should ask.

bloodseal_soul September 26 2008, 09:10:08 UTC

Ask if she knows?

albatross_river September 26 2008, 09:12:21 UTC

How else could you find out?

bloodseal_soul September 26 2008, 09:17:52 UTC

She wouldn't know, River... I hide a lot.

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[private//unhackable] highland_sword September 26 2008, 09:43:06 UTC

Oh... you didn't tell me...
But I guess... it's okay when you tell her...

[private//unhackable] bloodseal_soul September 26 2008, 09:52:15 UTC

I didn't tell hardly anyone... he told a few people, I told one because I was asking for advice, and the rest found out on accident, either through circumstances or my voices.

... I don't know how to tell her.

Re: [private//unhackable] highland_sword September 26 2008, 09:59:57 UTC

Oh... I see...

I don't think I can be of much help with that, since the time I got married, I had already abandoned all the bounds with my family...
But... from what you have told me... I think she will accept it. And still love you.

[private//unhackable] bloodseal_soul September 26 2008, 10:08:58 UTC

You know now...

... I'm... scared, Jowy. In my world, it's a taboo thing. It's wrong, it's bad. It doesn't matter that I can't help who I like... and what you grow up being told always stays with you.

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[Private to Al // Unhackable][Voice][1/2] kin_slayer September 26 2008, 10:22:32 UTC

Hm.

[A soft sigh.]

[Private to Al // Unhackable][Voice][2/2] kin_slayer September 26 2008, 10:29:40 UTC

What makes you afraid, exactly, Alphonse-kun? That she may reject you based on this?

I do not know your mother, but if this scares you so much I suspect it will eat at you and strain your relation with her if you conceal it. If it is out in the open, whether or not she accepts it immediately, there is the chance she will come to accept it, or tolerate it, and you two could work it out. If you conceal it you will never know if she would even reject you.

Also, you happen to be a terrible liar. She'll notice something is wrong sooner or later. It's probably best if you tell her now, instead of having her find out another way.

[Itachi's voice isn't exactly warm but it's... Measured and present, not so distant as his normal speech. There's a certain attentive quality he rarely displays.]

[Private to Itachi // Unhackable][Voice] bloodseal_soul September 26 2008, 10:38:16 UTC

... yes.

Just... have you ever... had someone think you were so perfect, and so wonderful, and so beautiful, that you could never do anything wrong... look at you like you'd just shattered them?

I understand what you're saying, Itachi... it makes sense, it all makes sense...

... but I'm scared of that moment. I'm scared of her looking at me like that, I'm scared of that one moment, even if she decides afterwards that she loves me no matter what. I'm sure she will. I have faith in her.

But she's the angel from my memory. From the time I was a little kid I wanted more than anything to be beautiful and perfect for her, so she'd be proud of me, so she'd smile for me. She would have done it anyway, I know, but...

[Al takes a shaky breath.]

Even if it makes it better in the end, and knowing I have to do it... I'm still so afraid of that moment.

[Private to Al // Unhackable][Voice] kin_slayer September 26 2008, 10:50:39 UTC

... Yes. I have, actually. I know exactly what that feeling is Alphonse.

It was a different situation maybe, but the look was the same.

[Itachi pauses, and the sound of the PCD being moved is accompanied by the sound of Itachi re-adjusting.]

And I also know what it is to want to make your parents proud of you. To strive beyond everything to be everything they desire, everything they could expect and be proud of.

I know what it is to want to be what you think they want.

[Itachi's voice is low and takes on that distant quality again, removed, detached.]

But you make the choice--live for them or live for your own beliefs and to be your own person. If she gives you that look...

[A short pause.]

It cannot be helped. But at least you will have been honest, with yourself and with her, and she cannot ask for more, I think. Not if she wants you to truly grow into your own person.

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