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[blindjinx]

I am fucking miserable. i have been sick for fucking weeks. i swear, ever since the pnuemonia [sp] i haven't been able to get over colds or flus the same. in fact, that's what this feels like. except, i'm still eating and i haven't gotten a heat rash. i want my head to implode. other than that, things are okay. yesterday was the 6 month mark for

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[slitmyheartlove]

Even though you are sick right now, it's so nice to hear something going good for you too. I know exactly what you mean when you say you can trust random strangers/potential friends, and not your boyfriend who you have been with for 6 months. I'm the same way. The further it gets in the more i don't trust. When i first meet someone I'm completely open. I'm a big hugger, I tell people everything personal without hesitation. But once i cross that border, and i know they know me, i start pushing them away. I start hesitating because they know too much and surely they are going to leave now that they know the crazy me. But the good thing is, by the time it's been a year, you know their in it to win it. They know your crazy and they aren't going anywhere. You start to let up on not trusting and just kind of relax into it. It's a nice feeling, being content. Get used to it!