IV

[blackmesh]

I suppose it's time to post again. I left off after my first time actually having sex. I suppose now I must explain the first encounter I had with dominant to submissive sexual play. Astonishingly enough, this came way before my first one night stand, my first time making love, or my first time with more than one partner or a partner of the

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[peterspecker]

Wow, how wonderful and intense and scary all at once.

[blackmesh]

My life is really astonishing...especially to myself.

[mistersilk]

Abso-fucking-lutely brilliant. Beatiful. Personal. Lyrical.

Did I comment on your other stories of your development? I did read them, and I loved them all. This one is just so much more though.

One thing I have to ask though, if your mother wouldn't let you close the door, did you have sex with the door open, screaming out "slut" and "Daddy" for all to hear?

[blackmesh]

Oh God! I've missed you!!! Where have you been? I don't know if you commented on my other stories, but I'm really glad you're commenting now. This one is so much more because Matthew means sooooo much to me. But all these are true. This is my life and every detail is either something I vividly remember or something I was feeling at the time. About the door, I usually would sneak it closed or we'd go to his place. But, there was high volumes of yelling and smacking and moaning and I know for a fact everyone in my house and everyone in Matt's house heard us on more than one occasion ;)

[mistersilk]

I really haven't been anywhere. I moved back to my home town. Spent a couple months unemployed. I'm just getting internet access in my new apartment for the first time this Saturday. You know -- life.

And, speaking of life, it is the reality of your stories that makes them so intense. I feel like my best works are also my most true. It always sounds a little stale when you are trying to make up words instead of just looking back at the moment and letting the words wash over you. Really, that story was fucking brilliant.

And, of course, fucking sexy. It reminded me of some of my 16 year-old sexcapades, when things felt so naughty, but we just rode this wave of lust not knowing or caring where it took us.

I'm very glad to see that you are still posting, my dear.

[blackmesh]

Life sometimes takes a big ol SUCK!

The reality of my life is pretty intense. I take it for granted...I really shouldn't. But, I do enjoy it. Oh, yes I do.

I'm really glad to still be posting. AND actually using this journal for something other than bullshit!

[jalajscion]

So you are back right? *snicker*

[blackmesh]

Yes

[stockinglegs]

Very intense!

I'm not really the domineering type, so it's interesting to hear about men who have done this...

I'm not submissive either though by the way, in case anyones wondering...

Good stuff! Keeping it real too - thats the way I like it!

[blackmesh]

Glad you liked it ;)

[rough_sexx]

Oh this is amazing.... a great insight into a remarkable relationship. and its fucking hot.

[blackmesh]

Thank you. He will always be very important to me.