My Indecisive Hatred

[blackjack_kat]

And once again, it's been a long while since I last posted. Happens. I'm pretty sure not many read this anymore. For the best. But I need to get some things out of my system. I went back to my dad's place last Tuesday, and I haven't been right since. I've been feeling off since school ended and... I think I've started to hit the tip of the ice burg

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[cinderabbit]

My darling, darling girl,

You're going through a very transitional, tough time right now. Since I'm at work I can't do a long responce, but I want you to know that I am always just a phone call away if you need to rant, or anything. You're a fantastic person.

I'll send you an email atfer work.

<3 <3 <3

[blackjack_kat]

*hugz*

[lime_green23]

your goin through a kind of transition phase with just having moved into a house full of new people, i did. Yul gradually grow a bit away from everyone else and gradually get closer to the people you live with. Though you'll likely never really get along with all of them, i certainly don't but they are all actually good guys. Soon enough you'll get pulled into their social activities and go around havin a good time, and yeah it really does feel like your losing yourself for a while, like they are all trying to make you someone else so that you'll fit in better with them. But for me after a while of thinking i wasn't the same person anymore i realised that i hadn't really changed any and that all the stuff we all did were things i actually enjoyed anyway but i never really wanted to admit it. And then once i realised that i was able to go back to those i had grown away from, well most of em anyway

[blackjack_kat]

"every time I spend time with people, it pulls me one way or another." If I was going in one direction, that might work out. It almost did. But then I remembered other important people and things in my life. The basic thing here is I'm putting myself in 20 places, each pushing me to be something different. And basically, setting up the venn diagram to figure out where everything over laps is hard. It's not black and white.

And yup, you're still not known for tact, or for any amount of kind, even useful, words. Sorry, that probably sounds harsher than I meant it, but still stands true. Thank you anyways, dear.

[boxxer_auction]

HArley? AS in Quinn? O;

-hugs- I tyhink everyone feels lost no matter what they do. I mean the world is huge. No matter how famous you are people know your name, but not YOU. It's a tough time, but we're all here for you and all a phone call away ;D You'll get through it!

<33333

[blackjack_kat]

Yup. Yay bodysuits. You did Harley at some point, didn't you?

*hugz*

[boxxer_auction]

Aweosme! I did make it at one point, although it's in semi-retirment until I can make the mask and hat thing properly xD Are you almost done though?

<3

[returnaddress]

*big hugs*