All My Lines Will Bend - a Sam/Dean mix + bonus EP
New mix(es) in a for me slightly experimental format. You might not know this, but I am a complete slave to the rules of making a mix tape (or cd in this case). COMPLETE SLAVE. And ridiculously anal. Which made it very hard for me when I found two and in some cases three songs from the same artist that I really wanted to use, because it. just. isn't. done. So, I had to come up with something and this is it. A two part cd (because apparently I can't just make one) and a bonus ep. The "real" cd consists of mirror versions with the same artists in the same order on both cds, and boy was that a pain in the ass to a) find and b) arrange in an order that worked for all songs/all artists. And then there is the bonus EP with songs that just didn't want to fit into the rest of it, but still somehow belongs. I think it makes up quite a nice little unit of its own though.
A few words on the mix itself: The fact that Sam and Dean ended up on separate track lists (i.e. cd 1 & 2) doesn't have any specific meaning. The songs on cd 1 are not supposed to be Dean and so on, it just happened like that because of the picture I used. Some songs might actually have ended up on the "right" side, but then it's just a fortunate coincidence. Also, I wanted this to be a much darker mix than it actually turned out to be. Some songs seems outright happy (or you know, as happy as Winchesters get) in comparison to what I originally intended, but frankly I couldn't work on this any more than already have. Let's call it a case where my anal retentiveness won over my artistic vision. I hope it works for you all anyway ;)
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1. The Bravery - Fearless
Something wicked this way comes
The best time I've ever had
Waiting around for something bad
2. Carpark North - The Beasts
There are the beasts
flushing through the streets
with sorrow
on their mind
without you
life does not make sense
without you by me
why did you go
without you
all my lines will bend
I fall without you
like dirt above
and sky below
like this you turn me
why did you go
like all my lines will bend
you break my fall
3. Madrugada - Hold On To You
I can come to terms
With slowly going mad
Things we used to fear in the dark
And what ever lies beyond that
But I've come to resemble
My own shadow
As it falls into the sidewalk
I'm no longer anyone I know
No-one here reminds me of you
Yet I see no-one else
On the crowded sidewalk
Well I'm
I'm gonna hold on to you
I'm gonna hold on to you
You
4. Missy Higgins - All For Believing
Pull back the shield between us and I'll kiss you
Drop your defences and come into my arms
I'm all for believing (I'm all for believing)
I'm all for believing if you can reveal the true colours within
I know you blanket your mind
So much that I am blind
But I see you've painted your soul into your guard
I'm all for believing (I'm all for believing)
5. Sonic Youth - Halloween
it's the devil in me
makes me stare at you as you
twist up along you
sing your song and you
slipping up to me and you're
so close i just a
wanna touch you and i
sing your song and you
dont know what's going on but you
wanna me to come along as you
sing your song and you're
fucking with me as you
slither up to me
your lips there
slipping twisting at my
insides and singing on
you're just a
swinging man, it's not your
swinging song and now i
don't know what you want but
you're looking at me and you're
falling to the ground and you're
twisting around fucking with my
my mind and i don't know what
's going on
6. I Am Kloot - Twist
twisted on destiny
fate and three wishes
we fuck and we fight
someone else does the dishes
and meantime my memory
reminisces and twists
twist, snap
i love you
there's blood on your legs
i love you
7. The Mountain Goats - Dilaudid
Because you just can't do
Things your body wasn't meant to
If we live to see the other side of this
I will remember your kiss
So do it with your mouth open
And take your foot off of the brake
8. The Dears - You And I Are A Gang Of Losers
You and I are on the other side
of almost everything
Cause we
We got the same heart
And we
We got the same heart
9. Heather Nova - This Body
The world outside can't describe my inner life
The river's long, the road rolls on in my inner life
I know you're a good man, but you can only guess
This body has traveled on, this body is fine and strong
This body has given life, nurtured and sacrificed
This body has done so much, this body needs your touch
10. José González - Crosses
Don't you know that I'll be around to guide you.
Through your weakest moments to leave them behind you.
Returning nightmares, only shadows.
We'll cast some light and you'll be alright.
We'll cast some light and you'll be alright for now.
Crosses all over, heavy on your shoulders.
The sirens inside me waiting to step forward.
Disturbing silence darkens your sight.
11. M. Craft - Silver & Fire
Silver and fire
Burn in the night
There’s nothing quite as beautiful
As your light
Deeper the waters
Darker the fall
Maybe this is everything
I need to know
Silver and fire
Burn in the night
I want you more than anything
I won’t fight
For I am the silver
You are the fire
And baby you’re the only thing
That can make me right
12. Nina Persson - Dead Leaves And The Dirty Ground
Soft hair and a velvet tongue
I want to give you what you give to me
and every breath that is in your lungs
is a tiny little gift to me
13. Kent - Kräm (så nära får ingen gå)
Jag vill ha din ryggrad här
Fäst den i mig
Jag är alltid tryggast när
du är en liten bit ifrån
en rörelse i ögonvrån...
Lägg dig ner precis
som du alltid gör när
jag vill ha min tunga där
du är, så nära att du blir våt
men så nära får ingen gå...
(for those of you who don't understand Swedish)
Uhm, yeah it's all about spines and tongues and heat and wetness. A poetic retelling of a fortunate seduction;) Basically it's a song about oral sex.
14. Turin Brakes - Pain Killer
Batten up the hatches, here comes the cold
I can feel it creeping, it's making me old
You give me so much love that it blows my brains out
My love giving me head
Feeling very guilty, breaking the bread
Losing my attention, I'm taking the world on
15. Anna Ternheim - When Tomorrow Comes
Underneath your dreamlit eyes
Shades of sleep have driven you away.
The moon is pale outside
And you are far from here.
Breathing shifts your careless head
Untroubled by the chaos of our lives.
Another day - another night
Has taken you again my dear.
And you know that I'm gonna be the one
Who'll be there
When you need someone to depend upon
When tomorrow comes...
16. The Bravery - No Breaks
No brakes this time, I slit the line
But if you want me, it’s cool, you can take me for a fool
I could slow down if you want me to
But just for you…
Carry me home, put me to bed
Leave me alone, it’s all in my head
Out of my hands, over the wheel
My only chance, my only appeal
What if you’re here to save me from this?
If I disappear will I be missed?
I never know what I should do
Can I leave it up to you?
17. Carpark North - Newborn
Bring back color in my blue skin
put the breath back in my mouth
I knew it all
and then nothing
kiss the tips of tired fingers
kiss the years I threw away
I knew it all
(the blood will start to rush)
(the veins are 'bout to crush)
tracing lines on blurry faces
grace just streams from out your eyes
18. Madrugada - Sirens
Well hearts belongs
Like rock and skin
At peace with evil
And all within
A shadow looms above the river
And fire sweeps across the land
Our bones are twisted in their sockets
And even we must try to stand alone
19. Missy Higgins - Nightminds
This world you're in now,
it doesn't have to be alone,
I'll get there somehow, 'cos
I know I know I know
when, even springtime feels cold.
But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see,
so we can both be there and we can both share the dark.
And in our honesty, together we will rise,
out of our nightminds, and into the light
at the end of the fight...
20. Sonic Youth - Bull In The Heather*
tell me that you wanna hold me
tell me that you wanna bore me
tell me that you gotta show me
tell me that you need to slowly
tell me that yr burning for me
tell me that you can't afford me
time to tell yr dirty story
time f'r turning over and over
time f'r turning four leaf clover
* Apparently Bull In The Heather was a race horse who won despite some really reallycrappy odds. So overcoming the worst odds ever adds a nice little meaning to this song in this compilation, I think. Plus, it reeks of sex ;)
21. I Am Kloot - Sold As Seen
You know the place where faces fit
I've heard they've got a name for it
Lets go back to the sandy shores
The velvet skies are ours once more
We're fake, for real
Our minds are steel
Our eyes are green
We're sold as seen
22. The Mountain Goats - Lion's Teeth*
The king of the jungle
Was asleep in his car
When your chances fall in your lap like that
You've gotta recognize them for what they really are
Nobody in this house
Wants to own up to the truth
I crawl in shotgun and reach into his mouth
And grab hold of one long sharp tooth
Everyone's screaming
I am dreaming of you
I hold on
For dear life
I hold on
And my arms get sore
And my palms start to sweat
And the tears roll down my face
Till my cheeks are hot and red and soaking wet
There's no good way to end this
Anyone can see
There's this great big you
And little old me
* So, this song is really about an abusive stepfather/father, and a boy's revenge, but in my brain the lion is the demon, not John. Just wanted to make that clear. Because John is love. I don't mean to imply that the demon is their father either. To make that clear as well ;)
23. The Dears - No Cities Left
Let's just keep fighting the end
We're holding hands
We're making plans
For life
Let's keep on fighting the end
Last time I swear or
We'll go nowhere tonite
Tonite
Don't you think that now
Is the time to move on
If you don't mind well I'll
Just keep holding on
For good
Let's just keep fighting
The end of the world
We will hold hands and
We will make plans
For life
24. Heather Nova - Not Only Human
I just want to lie here awhile, tempting fate
I don't think I could breathe now with you gone
But it's not weakness it's just something I've begun
Maybe there's a light that's always on
Maybe we're not only human, maybe
Maybe there's a light that's always on
And we're not only human
There's a power when you're near me
In our heads or in our bones
I know nothing but I'm guessing
When we die we're not alone
25. José González - Heartbeats
One night to be confused
One night to speed up truth
We had a promise made
Four hands and then away
Both under influence
We had divine sense
To know what to say
Mind is a razorblade
To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough
For me, no
One night of magic rush
The start a simple touch
One night to push and scream
And then relief
And you
You knew the hand of the devil
And you
Kept us awake with wolves teeth
Sharing different heartbeats
In one night
26. M. Craft - Love Knows How To fight
So if you wanna fuck up with a beer bottle in your hand then so do i
And if you wanna cut up the blueprints and the plans then so do i
You wanna get messed up, and make a final stand? well so do i
Cause i look around me and i see, nothing can save me now..
Love knows how to fight
Love knows how to fight
Love knows how to fight
And fight it will right up until the end
Love knows how to fight
Like darkness wrapped in light
Darkness wrapped in light
But love knows how to fight
Love knows how to fight
27. Freddie Wadling & Nina Persson - Som Glas
saker som passerar oss /things that pass us by/
rör vid mig men bara lätt /touches me, but just lightly/
flyktigt som ett tomtebloss /volatile like a sparkler/
allt jag vet men inte sett /all the things I know, but haven't seen/
jag är ung jag vill fly /I am young, I want to escape/
vill du flyga bort med mig /will you fly away with me/
det är lätt om du vill /it will be easy, if you want it/
flyg med mig tätt intill /fly with me close to you/
som glas ser jag genom dig /like glass, I can see through you/
ser hur du dras till mig /see how you're drawn to me/
jag vill ut /I want out/
jag vill fly /I want to escape/
flyga bort från allt jag gjort /fly away from everything I've done/
det går fort, lite till /it'll be quick, just a little more/
det du vill är det jag vill /what you want is what I want/
28. Kent - Lifesavers
I will save your life
When you´re out and down
I will dim all the lights
To comfort your eyes
You would do the same
You would do it all for me
Anytime lifeline
You saved my life
When you tied me down
And if I cry
Tell me that I would do the same
If ever it were you
The next time lifeline
29. Turin Brakes - Little Brother
Relax, relax, relax, my little brother
All that you've been through, a lifetime
Cling on, cling on, cling on to me my little brother
And we'll laugh at the grand scheme of things
But you are keeping me breathing
Your voice is keeping me moving
There was a way out of this mess
Plenty of time, find a new place
Catch you some sunshine for your face
We were running on empty
You killed yourself but I was sleeping...
30. Anna Ternheim - Lovers Dream
Please put me at ease
Now my soul is ready for peace
Give me the lover's curse
Now I am ready for you
My rebel, my hope
Maybe I could be yours
Maybe you could be mine
God, I waited so long
Maybe my time has come
To walk by your side
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1. Anna Ternheim - I'll Follow You Tonight
Caught by what comes by
Stand alone without a fair chance tonight
Here again by your side when
They turn on all the lights
Yes I’ll follow you tonight
The worst mistake to make
Or just the kind of promise you simply have to break
So please turn out the lights
And I’ll follow you tonight…
2. Jack - My World Versus Your World
my drugs versus your drugs
my songs versus your songs
my time before sleep versus your time before sleep
my silly lies versus your silly lies
my drunk versus your drunk
my hurt versus your hurt
my fingers and thighs versus your fingers and thighs
my tragic first love versus your tragic first love
my debt versus your debt
my childhood grudge versus your childhood grudge
my cruel bliss versus your cruel bliss
my dirty tricks versus your dirty tricks
my truth versus your truth
don't make this wait
don't make me say it
say it loud
when I can't even write it down
kill time with me
like on this Saturday
and on bank holiday
just you and me
we'll cut the throat of time
won't it be fine
more wrong than right...
3. Now It's Overhead - With A Subtle Look
We started off across a room
locking eyes and subtle clues.
Connection then devotion grew
closer than our mothers knew.
It's hard to fill the middle in.
What triggered cause to the effect.
Suddenly you exited.
With a subtle look we would communicate.
Now all the words we saved return to curse your name.
With a subtle look.
I'm jumping off this moving ground
needing just to levitate.
I'm landing now forgetting how.
Your gravity ruins everything.
You fill my head and weigh it down.
My clouded heavy vision sees
your arms once mine now wrapped around
a different boy, he looks like me.
4. The Mountain Goats - Up The Wolves
there's bound to be a ghost
at the back of your closet
no matter where you live
there'll all ways be a few things
maybe several things
that your gonna find really difficult to forgive
there's gonna come a day
when you'll feel better
you'll rise up easy on that day
and float from branch to branch
lighter than the air
just when that day is coming
who can say
who can say
i'm gonna get myself in fighting trim
scope out every angle
of unfair advantage
i'm gonna bribe the officals
i'm gonna kill all the judges
it's gonna take you people years
to recover from all of the damage
5. Kent - Protection
I tried so hard to make you smile
For once I tried to be myself
I made you scared, I made you cry
So I never tried again
And you tried to tell me how you feel
I couldn´t hear you say a thing
You tried to tell me how you feel
I wasn´t listening
I wasn´t listening
It took me twenty-nine years
to reach perfection
They fill us with fear
computerised rejections
Your voice disappears
On a bad connection
It gets lonely out here
I need protection, please
Are you protecting me
Now I found a way to make you smile
pretending I am someone else
Cause I really missed your smile
more than I missed myself
You found a way to keep it inside
to a point where you can´t feel a thing
and silence suits us fine
Well, we´re not listening
No, we´re not listening
6. Madrugada - I Don't Fit
So come
Out of my shadow
Where your shadow
Falls upon me
Come
Back from your suicide
With that face that you hide
That only I can see
See how clearly I do not fit
In the place that you've been making
Now since I re-awakened to some memory
Come to think of it
I think that we should quit
I don't fit in there at all
It's not really all that bad
But the chances you've been takin'
And that rattle you've been shakin'
With that moon on the run
(original Swedish versions of the Kent songs - and frankly - better)
Kent - Livräddaren
Kent - Beskyddaren
My previous SPN mixes:
Rocket Brothers (Wincest)
Here It Comes (You Might As Well) (Wincest)
Dancing With Death (Dean Winchester)
Fear No Darkness Promised Child (Sam Winchester)