out in the wide world

[bitterfig]

I’m not sure if I feel like a different person these last couple of weeks or like I’m finally myself again.

Everything isn’t happy happy joy joy all the time of course, I’ve had a couple bad days and I’m still trying to get my eating back on track my mood has been good and I have energy and ideas.

I haven’t been doing much writing

Comments

[lawless523]

I'm glad Abilify is working for you. It's great when something works.

Unfortunately psychiatric drugs and I are not friends. The only one I tolerated was Zoloft and at most I felt it helped even out my moods, not really make me more "up". My main medical problem seems to be musculoskeletal pain oriented and no amount of antidepressants will cure that. Now that I'm not working, I've found even the painkiller (it's actually an interrupter of neural transmissions) I was taking was bad for me because it was making me dopey and aggravating my inability to concentrate.

[bitterfig]

Thanks.

I tried taking Zoloft at one point but had a bad reaction to it. It made my heart beat fast and my chest feel odd and empty.

Do you have fibromyalgia or something similar?

[lawless523]

Yes, but it's not the original problem. I started out with symptoms similar to carpal tunnel in my left (dominant) hand that turned out to be due to foraminal stenosis (nerve compression) in my neck, but it wasn't diagnosed and properly treated for seven years. In the meantime, I developed two partial tears in my left shoulder due to adjustments made as a result of the nerve compression as well as tendinitis in my right shoulder associated with a lot of mouse clicking, etc. I believe the years of untreated foraminal stenosis, plus poor physical fitness, was the cause of the fibromyalgia

[bitterfig]

I've been pretty alarmed lately by the number of women around my age (mid to late 30's) who have fibromyalgia or related conditions. Via facebook I just found out last month that both a high school and a college friend have it. As someone who as a chronic condition myself I have a great deal of sympathy and I'm also bothered by how difficult it's been for them to get properly diagnosed and treated.

I had irritable bowel syndrome for the better part of two years back in 1999-2000. It was really painful whenever I ate and since I was underweight to start with at the time I had a really rough time. I was fortunate and it more or less subsided on it's own in time. I think it was largely stress related.

[lookfar]

So so so glad you are feeling better!!!

[bitterfig]

Thank you.

[rosehiptea]

I'm really glad you're feeling better and you've been doing well at work.

[bitterfig]

Thank you.

[laura_seabrook]

[bitterfig]

Thanks.

[elana_m]

I'm so happy for you! Keep going!

[bitterfig]

Thanks so much.