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daffodill in bipolarsurvival

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Jan 19, 2005 19:39

i feel bad today.
i found out ive completly wasted $12000
in one of my more manic stages...
i had no idea until now.
its not like i didint know... i just didnt realise untill today.

( crap )

quiz, excessive spending, mania

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grackles January 19 2005, 11:44:49 UTC

Dude. Don't feel bad, I've wasted twice that much. It still horrifies me.

daffodill January 19 2005, 11:53:41 UTC

thanks.. i guess its good to know..

it still doesnt make up for the fact ...

i just feel so used...

grackles January 19 2005, 11:55:00 UTC

Oh, did someone screw you over? I bought an ex-boyfriend a $6000 dollar motorcycle and the bastard wrecked it the first week. I still hate him with a fiery passion.

daffodill January 19 2005, 11:59:58 UTC

nah it wasnt "screw" me over...
or maybe not even lets take advantage,
it was just
He has the money,
ask him..

I have alot of problems saying no..
to anything... especially ppl i like/ love/ am in love with.

it just feels like i gave all that i had... and got nothing... i dunno
i think im going into a depresso state

Problems saying no h_thur January 19 2005, 16:00:37 UTC

Me too. I'm reformed now, and I can say "hell no" much easier these days. I blew my $8,000 (plus money I earned working) student loan on my much older alcoholic boyfriend keeping him in the beer and me in the whiskey.

Many regrets, but it's over now. That was 7 years ago and I'm just now starting to recover financially.

Re: Problems saying no daffodill January 20 2005, 04:31:43 UTC

yeah it kept my "friends" and i fairly high for a little while :(

grackles January 19 2005, 12:36:33 UTC

It sounds like it. I hope you don't get too down. If you get to feeling too bad, be sure to post on here so maybe we can help cheer you up.

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daffodill January 20 2005, 04:30:19 UTC

no it was mostly on frivilous crap,
useless
Nights out with friends,
etc etc
shopping, clothes,
shoes, things i dont need but looked good enough to buy

useless crap

nerdyglam January 21 2005, 18:28:31 UTC

Can you sell back or return any of it?

I think most of us have been there. Just try to learn from it and move on. I try to have my parents/SO help me manage my money and only keep a portion of it in my checking account. The majority of it is in an account where I have to go through the process of having my parents transfer it for me. Its annoying but it keeps me out of trouble.

Good luck.