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[winterinafrica]

How is it that, even with the consequences glaring me in the face and knowing the number of times I've been through it, I can always convince myself that my latest mood-isode wasn't really that bad and maybe I don't realllly need meds, etc.? When I'm stable, especially for long periods of time (8 months and counting atm), it's so easy to forget how

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[strokemybow]

i'm curious to see responses. i'm someone who has been diagnosed bipolar with psychotic tendencies, gone through cocktails of meds and ECT treatment (which, in fact, worked wonders for me) and i have ceased taking medication. (my psychiatrist and family know this, after i conducted an experiment on them. .. eheheh. science.)

i'm about three, four years free of medication. occasionally i take seroquel because it knocks me right out when i need to sleep. otherwise, that's it. i do have depressive episodes and mood swings but they are far and few between, and i see a therapist regularly to discuss deeper reasons behind my episodes.

mind, this is not always a Good Idea for other people to stop their meds because you feel good; your meds are why you feel good.

watches thread.

[winterinafrica]

I have those same thoughts. I can't help sometimes feeling that my entire life is fake somehow or a sham, since the only thing truly keeping it any semblance of together at this point are a handful of pills. Luckily too, my boyfriend (even though he's a normie) is very supportive and understanding. And he's seen me at my worst, so he knows not taking them isn't an option.

[theyellowfog]

Heck, I want to come off my meds even if I'm stable for a day. I hate being on medication, but I also have to remind myself that I do, in fact, need it. Last year, when I was stable for a few months, I asked my doctor to go off all my meds. He replied "Wow. Are you trying to give me a heart attack?" and then laughed. So, yeah. As frustrating as it is, I'd rather be happy on meds, than unhappy off them.

[6a696c6c]

I stopped taking my meds for about 4 months. While I felt better in a sense, I also totally realized how much they help me and in what ways. Now that I feel like I truly understand what my meds are doing for me, I have no problem taking them.