stupid disease

[crystalstarr]

I'm seriously struggling this past year. And, it is my fault. I decided in a mania episode like a true bipolar that I was fine and didn't need my medication. So since last year of June I've not been medicated. Of course its been hell, but Ive been in denial that it was other stuff. And, as always my life has turned upside down and I'm finally

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[harrietbrown]

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I would second the idea of going to the ER and seeing if you can get medication to tide you over until you see your doctor, but just be aware that they may want to keep you for observation, in which case you would have to make child-care arrangements for your son. Try to prepare as if you'll be in the hospital ahead of time, so if it comes to that you're not taken by surprise and don't have to make last-minute arrangements.

Where I live, we have something called a Mobile Outreach Unit, a crisis team that visits people in their homes. You may want to see if you have something like that in your community, so you can see somebody until you either go to the hospital or see your pdoc.

I hope this helps. Let us know how it goes!

[crystalstarr]

Thanks so much. I'll do a google search to see if we have a mobile outreach.

[crystalstarr]

Yeah if I go to the ER I will be sure to tell them there is just WAY too much going on in my home that I cannot stay. I have found they usually will let me go as long as Im not in danger to hurt myself.

Im just kicking myself because he has displayed signs for a long time and I just ignored it, and refused to believe he too could be like me. But, I can't ignore it anymore now that there is a clear sign of him putting himself in danger, ya know?

Im very happy he told me, and he promised if he felt like it again he would tell me. We've been kinda walking on eggshells in the house since then to try to keep him calm and mellow. So far he has seemed ok.

[princesswhore]

I'm sorry about your son. I don't have children but I remember what it was like for me as a child dealing with my mood swings and I've had a lot of talks with my mother since I finally sought treatment a couple of years ago.

One good thing, at least in my opinion, is that you are able to recognize there are some issues, and willing to get help for him. I have often wondered how my childhood could have been different/better if I had been receiving recognition and help for my bipolar and other issues earlier in my life. I think, because of your own experiences, that you are in a great position to help him and be more understanding. That can all go a long way in making sure he learns to manage his illnesses before they cause harm in his adult life to come.

And yes, take care of yourself! Do what you need to be stable so he can learn from you!

It must be so rough and so scary, but think about what you've already been through with your bipolar. It takes a lot of strength to make it this far. :)

[shalomdebbie]

Oh geez. Such a familiar story. I went off meds in June for only a couple weeks and it took me until mid-August to get stabilized again.

I have a bipolar daughter who presented serious symptoms at age 7 (suicidal depression, days of mania and not sleeping). She's on Seroquel now and doing very well.

All I can give you is my sympathy and love. Get on your meds, listen to your health providers, surround yourself with people who will listen, don't try to hide your illness from your child and try to be a role model of survival.

It's not easy but the bad times pass. You can be a great parent if you take care of yourself too.

[notxdeadxyet]

This sounds horribly frightening. I'm glad you have an appointment set up for him....that's an excellent start. It's also a sign of things getting better.
Please keep us posted on how it goes.
**********HUGS for both of you*********