Hugs. bipolarity sucks. Im struggling myself with some bipolarity shit. Do you have a good relationship with your mom? Can you talk to her and have her help you deal what is going on. At least you realize that things are right. Do you have a pdoc, therapist? Congrats on not cutting and working through it. hugs
Sociologically speaking adulthood isn't really starting until 25+. At 20 you're still learning how to be an adult, plus on top of it learning how to deal with bipolar, cut yourself some slack. At 20, I wasn't completely able to take care of all of my own shit. I was in college, i did a lot of things but my parent still helped me and still taught me. Good luck at the pdocs.
First of all, being twenty years old and not being able to take care of your things is actually a rather normal development in this complex world.
Secondly, I'm having a similar experience at work as you are. Those mental health sickdays that I need (maybe once every two months) are no longer available to take without it counting against me at my job (even though the company gives us a certain amount of sicktime for these same reaons).
I wouldn't recommend controlling food. There are ways of getting that "control" feeling without hurting yourself.
Maybe organize the hell out of your room, keep your shoes perfectly straight, and color code your closet. Those are things you can do every day, and when you look at it you'll feel more in control. It can also show your mom that you're trying really hard to get a grip on things.
You could also try keeping yourself on a strict schedule of when you get up and when you go to bed, whether you feel like it or not. If you're still tired in the morning, get up anyway and push through it. Remember how you got used to the hunger, and it started to feel good? Maybe the tiredness in the morning can be your "new hunger" that you get used to.
Make yourself go out for half hour walks twice a day, no matter what the weather is like. That's another good one.
Hang in there, and congrats on the one year mark. It really does get easier after that.
thanks a lot for the advice. I think it's the best one i got so far. my room is pretty much organized tho. but yeah. it needs some cleaning. and maybe i could reorganize it.
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I'm seeing a bipolar doctor for the first time on tuesday. I'm going in with my mom so the doc can explain to her exactly whats going on and stuff..
thanks *hugs*
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Secondly, I'm having a similar experience at work as you are. Those mental health sickdays that I need (maybe once every two months) are no longer available to take without it counting against me at my job (even though the company gives us a certain amount of sicktime for these same reaons).
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Maybe organize the hell out of your room, keep your shoes perfectly straight, and color code your closet. Those are things you can do every day, and when you look at it you'll feel more in control. It can also show your mom that you're trying really hard to get a grip on things.
You could also try keeping yourself on a strict schedule of when you get up and when you go to bed, whether you feel like it or not. If you're still tired in the morning, get up anyway and push through it. Remember how you got used to the hunger, and it started to feel good? Maybe the tiredness in the morning can be your "new hunger" that you get used to.
Make yourself go out for half hour walks twice a day, no matter what the weather is like. That's another good one.
Hang in there, and congrats on the one year mark. It really does get easier after that.
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yeah, i know. but its like. i just need to try something to make it all stop. but i know its stupid, and i wont do it.
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