Off topic: Mucho jealous of you being in Byron. 2 more months till I get my holiday up there *sigh*
On topic: My mixed states are like having a hundred cups of coffee. I get really jittery, talk really really fast, coz my thoughts are racing really fast, I get panic attacks coz my anxiety goes through the roof. All at the same time as feeling like I need to slice my wrists.
Mine is exactly like the previous poster, except I keep dancing and overeating. Every single time, it's been so bad I don't sleep until 4:30 AM, or even later. Sometimes not the whole night. The funny thing is, though, sometimes it makes me feel so happy it's like I'm taking drugs. Other times, I cry at the stupid, stupidest things. Even things normally not considered offensive in the least bit. Catfights
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No, never set foot in this country 7,500 miles away from me. I would really, REALLY love to move there... But my parents tried to and they were too old for visas.
Nothing overly special about James Ruse, it's just another Sydney private school, there are heaps of them, Sydneysiders are snobs in general and love their private schools :P
Interesting that you ask this question as I'm having a mixed episode now. How do I feel? Crrazzzzy. My heart is beating fast. Sometimes I'm talking really quickly other times I'm afraid to say anything at all. I've been isolating from people and end up alone and terribly anxious a lot of the time. I'm seeing a depressing bleak future for myself all the while wanting to jump out of my skin. It's confusing.
my pdoc and I have agreed I pretty much live in a mixed state, ultra rapid cycling or not.
I've experienced basically two types, both of which are highly reactive (i.e. the smallest thing will make me cry or make me want to literally beat the shit out of you. yea, my boyfriend has a fun time): the vast majority of the time I feel anxious, depressed, sometimes suicidal, wanting to curl up and die, but not able to sleep or not sleep enough; a few times I've had manic thoughts (gotta do this WHOLE LIST of stuff RIGHT NOW, can't sit still, can't keep a conversation going or read a book) with anxiety, of course, but I'm tired enough I sleep the whole day away or spend it staring at the ceiling.
Basically, its like the inside of my mind is being ripped in half. I have like, 20 megatons of energy, I talk lots, cry lots, get violent, get hardout anxious, suicidal ideation generally rules, itchy under the skin, paranoid, and i think i have only ever been involved in a car accident when mixed.
Basically, i freak out, and go through all sorts of hell.
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On topic: My mixed states are like having a hundred cups of coffee. I get really jittery, talk really really fast, coz my thoughts are racing really fast, I get panic attacks coz my anxiety goes through the roof. All at the same time as feeling like I need to slice my wrists.
Hope all is ok.
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How long do your mixed states last for?
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Um no I've never heard of that school actually! Are you from aus?
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No, never set foot in this country 7,500 miles away from me. I would really, REALLY love to move there... But my parents tried to and they were too old for visas.
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I've experienced basically two types, both of which are highly reactive (i.e. the smallest thing will make me cry or make me want to literally beat the shit out of you. yea, my boyfriend has a fun time): the vast majority of the time I feel anxious, depressed, sometimes suicidal, wanting to curl up and die, but not able to sleep or not sleep enough; a few times I've had manic thoughts (gotta do this WHOLE LIST of stuff RIGHT NOW, can't sit still, can't keep a conversation going or read a book) with anxiety, of course, but I'm tired enough I sleep the whole day away or spend it staring at the ceiling.
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Basically, i freak out, and go through all sorts of hell.
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