When I was working, I always felt like there was just that one person who I should automatically hate- I would just get so irritable whenever I saw them. I always, always thought it was them, but then I recognized my pattern. I hate that people say "Oh, you can't get along with everyone! Just do blah blah blah", like I was normal. This is all pre-diagnosis. Now I realize that my irrational irritability was just due to my own frustration and me picking easy targets to take it out on.
I COMPLETELY agree with you. At my job, I have been employed for more than a month than the girl who is ALLOWED to treat me like a volunteer (ignoring me, bossing me around, bitching me out). I am paid less than her and I work as hard as if not HARDER than she does. I pull other people's shifts all the time at work, but when I go into the hospital to get help, they decide they will fire me if I don't bring a doctor's note. BULLSHIT! It's all bullshit... lol
"I let myself slip, The disease got the better of me because of my own weakness and lack of control..."
On the other hand, it may be the nature of the disease to get the better of you and while bucking up and accepting responsibility and working that much harder will get you somewhere in the short run, blaming yourself might just set you up for pain and self-loathing when something you can't control comes along.
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God, I was a horrible co-worker!
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On the other hand, it may be the nature of the disease to get the better of you and while bucking up and accepting responsibility and working that much harder will get you somewhere in the short run, blaming yourself might just set you up for pain and self-loathing when something you can't control comes along.
It's a delicate balance.
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