Oh, sweet death, come claim me quickly...

[bipolar_brit]

Fuck. Last night my mood seriously crashed and burned. If there's one thing I hate, it's knowing that any moment my happy, smiley self can disappear into a pit of hateful darkness. I'm currently of the thinking that I'm going to stop writing fan-fiction. My best friend and "editor" has been beating me up for the last year for not having "Any

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[x_ever_long_x]

Dear God. If you disappear from the world of fanfiction...I think...I'll die. *hugs* But ultimately, it's your decision. I don't wanna see you down or depressed about your life. You shouldn't feel like you're going nowhere, because you're definitely going somewhere. You're still affecting people, helping them through stuff during work, talking to people online after work? It's all good! You've definitely cheered me up, y'know? I practically live for the times we get to talk these days, and it was your fiction that originally introduced me to you, and I live for that too. Everyone feels bad about themselves at some time. And yeah, I know you're craving to write some original ideas! It's good to know that you wanna do that, but your editor shouldn't pressure you too much anyway, because it's mostly down to you and what you want to happen. If you think about it, there are so many writers on LJ who could go into writing too! And I'm sure many of them do! If you're worried about fanfiction, that's not going to be the thing that's stopping

[bipolar_brit]

Cheers doll. :) You always know how to cheer me up. *hugs* I don't think I'll disappear entirely from the world of fan-fiction. It's one of those dirty addictions that I don't think we can get rid of, you know? It's just... *sigh* I feel like I'm wasting my life. It happens from time to time to all of us, I know. I'm just p-a-r-a-n-o-i-d about another breakdown, about going back into the pits of despair that I can't drag my sorry ass from. It's a demon of the illness I suppose, the stupidly mentally non-drug-induced highs and the bone crushing lows. But I did have an idea in the shower and I'm going to work on it now, right there, in front of Jerry Springer I think. If there's nothing better for turning your mind than Living TV! Cheers baby - I'll always love you! *hugs*