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[billiej86]

hmm lets see things lately have been kinda weird I've been having these weird thoughts lately like will I forget everyone sooner or later will I lose touch with all my friends will I or someone close to me die yea I don't really understand it. crazyness is about and I"m just here I feel as if I'm always breaking my promises, not sticking to my

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[xfallen_angelx7]

Yeah, I totally understand you. That happens to be when I'm about to break down. Like when Danny and I broke up. It was the shittiest moment of my entire life.

I don't think it's so much that you're not keeping promises or sticking to commitments, but maybe...subconsciously...you wish you could spend more time with all of your closest friends and become more attached. I'm no psychologist, yet, but I do believe that's where all your questions and feelings of "breaking" are coming from. And you're right. You won't know the answer to these unless you live through it and then search deep within yourself.

I don't think I am considered a close friend to you, but I'm here and I won't betray you. I promise. I just wanted to let you know. :)

And by the way, I'm temporarily in town, so if you feel like going out for some coffee and a talk, just call me up. I'm sure you have my number, lol.

hmmm

[billiej86]

yea mabye your right I guess I do feel kinda bad cuz I don't get to spend a lot of time with my friends or like I don't try hard enough to spend time with them but it's my fault. you are a good friend to me we go pretty far back and stuff so yea, oh your in town I don't remember your number but I think I remember where you live so that will help

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[xfallen_angelx7]

i hope you feel better. you should really try and spend more time outside your house and dedicate yourself to your friends, even if its just a little.
lol, obviously my 'identity' has been revealed but i guess it doesn't matter anymore cuz you're awesome! yea, we do kinda have a 'history' since like 7th grade. yes, i am in town for now and if you don't remember my digits then no problem: (home 592-7370) (cell 269-0221). you should really gimme a call or go shopping with me and Sato, it will be much fun. my ice cream offer is still valid, lol.

[billiej86]

thanks to tell you the truth I started to feel better but then I started feeling worse so yea. I know I need to spend more time out of my house but theres like nothing ever to do and yea I'm always letting everyone down so I'm sorry to everyone. yea I know who you are now and your awsome also, yea mabye I'll give you a call no promises but when do you go back that way I can mabye see you or talk to you before you go. I have to buy sato a gift so it wouldn't be wise to buy his gift while he was here but thanks for the offer. ha ha yea ice cream hmm I think about it, we should go to 7-11 and get some coffee or hot chocolate or something

[midnitecarnival]

... brandon... thinking too much sometimes isnt a good thing, hell it isnt a good thing most of the times! heh i dont think i'll ever betray you but if i do it'll be the day we'll fight to the death... you'll be slain by my masamune... haha! well just dont think too much... i'll see you around billie jean!

[billiej86]

I wasn't thinking to much just differnt thoughts lately. I hope you'll never betray me, and that you'll always be honest with me cuz sometimes it seems like your hiding something. yes one day the fight to the death will happen probably when were like 80 years old and we'll still be playing games we'll see who will win against my hiten style

p.s. billie jean is not my lover, she's just a girl

[_michiko_]

*hug* =)

[billiej86]

thank you for the hug now I feel much better