... first of all I would like to start off by saying yes I read Pauls post and yes I am writing about the same things because it's the same things that are on my mind.Things such as questioning myself and my abilities and often feeling like a jackass for flipping out on someone when I feel hurt or treated unfair and as always the feeling of ( Read more... )

Though sometimes it's rough I love life, to love and be loved in return,being around those who I love, to think about things in private and god knows that I love Theatre. I am not one to use the word love lightly because love is a word that leads to tons of harm and hurt. I have a few issues in life that i've been trying to deal with for the last ( Read more... )

Ya know I often lie in my bed and think "why not me". It seems that over my whole life there have been people around me who have gained special relationships with people who they take time to get to know and become friends with. Of course anyone who has ever read my live journal know's that I have the worst of luck with the romance that I long to ( Read more... )

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Over the last few entries I have been bitchin (according to chris)about not being able to find myself in a relationship with a girl. I have liked a certain girl since the time we did Funny Girl or in September for those of you who dont know what the hell funny girl is. I am not gonna lie I dont care about having sex and all of that I am past that ( Read more... )

Ya know I think that being a teenager is shit load harder than people make it seem. I'm a sophomore in high school and ever since I have been in high school I havent had a girl friend. I dont know what is my problem I mean i understand that I'm not the best looking guy in the world but it seems that there is at least one good quality about me . ( Read more... )

I just went on a trip to Washington D.C. with the band. The trip was ok ya know it has it's ups and downs and sometomes I was pissed and sometimes I wasnt just like a normal day ya know. But there is this band chick I like , she nice looking has an innocent and bubblie personality and a body to die for and I ya know like her it's not like I would ( Read more... )

It always seems to me that the people especially the wemon that I hang out with always lie to me. The girl who I've been talking about for the last few entries that I have posted is such a bitch. I call her a few times to ask her to homecoming and instead of picking up the phone and telling me no or just plain saying I dont want to go with you, ( Read more... )

I was in the school's talent show today. I think that I did well except for one big problem MY FUCKING MIKE DIDN'T WORK.I was singing and you know trying to get the crowd into what's going on and then it hit me that the crowd couldnt hear a word that I was saying/singing. I have no problem with whoever was running sound but next time please just ( Read more... )

I have some of th weirdest experiences with girls. I really like this girl and I want to take her to prom but every time I call her she never answers, I go to school with her and sit beside her every day at lunch but she never mentions "why did you call me?" so I dont want to be like why why didnt you call me but then I dont know if she even got ( Read more... )