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[bethan_b_bad]

I phoned home earlier when I knew Mam would be home from work: Dad was surprisingly okay for a guy who's never been good at being sympathetic where I'm concerned. Mum then took over the phone and kicked off a bit, but by the end (I suspect the bit where I started audibly crying again - yes, I know, this is getting ridiculous with the bloody

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[synekdokee]

I told you it'd sort out :D And your birthday is going to be awesome, I'm sure of it.

May I ask, why don't you want to go to France? Sure, it's school and seminars and lectures, but still. I wish I could go abroad for a bit.

[bethan_b_bad]

That's the daft thing - I've been broadly looking forward to it ever since I signed up to do French at university, especially once I found out I could do Journalism there. Once I've got somewhere definite to live I'll probably be happy to go again, but right now it's just completely overwhelming. The guy organising it has been screwing things up right left and centre, every time I turn around there seems to be one more thing I can't do or will miss because I'll be in France, and Paris feels completely terrifying at the moment even though I adored the place when I was there.

I keep trying to remind myself that, y'know, in all likelihood I'll have a whale of a time whilst I'm there, but with all this ridiculous right now it's stopped working.

[todd_loves_mc]

I'm glad things have worked out for you in one way or another.

take care and hugs