Free-form OCD, bitches...

[benchilada]

Please excuse all the lines and things through this. It was my first time using Bristol board for a Fuckbrain Comix, and not only did I neglect to use a photo-negative blue pencil, but I also pressed too hard. After about 40 minutes of touch-ups on a VERY ugly scan, I decided that this will do

Comments

[agentorrange]

Your description of the first time you smoked pot reminds me of the first time I had a cigarette.

[benchilada]

Yeah, nicotine didn't have THAT big of an effect on me, but it sure as hell helped. I was briefly treated with a nicotine patch at one point. Can't remember why I had to stop, but it was probably because it made me want to smoke again.

[katetastrophe]

Someone once said to me, "Other people smoke pot and get stoned. You do it, and you just get normal." She was right. While on the bake, I was calm, patient and amiable, instead of my usual high-strung irascibility. I was years away from getting the help I needed, I had gotten a couple of shitty diagnoses here and there and had no idea what my deal was, just that i was really nervous. The bad news is, I abused the shit out of the weed like I did every other pleasure in life and had to abandon it and pursue other avenues. I'm doing better than I ever have now, but I believe 100% in the benefits of smoking pot. Sure, some people take it too far and melt into the sofa for years on end. But there are others who really can and do benefit from it. I did way more damage to myself and others in one weekend of drinking than I could do in six months of smoking. It's bullshit that pot smokers are treated like baby killers in our system.

[benchilada]

I've quit regular smoking and have cut my alcohol and caffeine intake by probably 75%, which makes me feel better about the pot. A vaporizer will make me feel even better.

Thankfully it rarely has the effect of making me stare at infomercials for four hours, so I actually get shit done while high. Hell, I'm often better at cleaning with one puff and a cup of coffee.

[blackcat2086]

5 hours and 20min really doesn't seem like that big of a deal for something like this. I've spent 5 hours on stupid sketches.
Also adding that I can't stand the words "milk", "cookie", or "cake". I hate hearing them and saying them. They make my mouth feel funny and gunky and I don't like it. It's not as bad if the "c" and "k" sounds are perfectly enunciated, as long as whoever is saying it doesn't keep saying it. "Milk" disgusts me though. Even as I'm thinking the word in my head, I'm scowling.

[benchilada]

It's just SO FUCKING HARD. It's like squeezing out a turd after only eating almonds for a week. I wish I knew how some people can just DO drawings.

I actually had somebody tell me that I looked confused and angry as I drew. :P

Long m's and s's suck m'n'm's.

[meetzemonsta]

I'm so glad to have found someone else (read: you) who smokes the dope to combat OCD. While I do get the giddy buzz giggles and never-ending talking from it, it also calms my brain down enough to where I'm not wandering around my apartment at four o'clock in the morning locking and unlocking the front door in odd number patterns or lying awake with a three-second song loop stuck in my head for five fucking hours.

Since I discovered how much it actually helps me, I've been smoking on an almost nightly basis for about a year and sometimes, I feel like such a stoner waste for doing it. So, it's nice to hear about someone else using it for the same reasons.

Also, I totally feel you on the words/feelings thing. There are some words, or combinations of words, that irritate me so badly it's almost a physical pain and then there's others that are like velvet on the brain. Sometimes, I get trapped between the words/feelings thing and the obsessive thoughts, stuck on a word or phrase I read somewhere that I hate and all I can do is keep

[blackcat2086]

"...lying awake with a three-second song loop stuck in my head for five fucking hours."

God, I've had that happen so many times and I don't even have OCD. Or I'll wake up with a short bit of song instantly stuck in my head on loop, sometimes for days. Or a word- usually something not in my common vocabulary, or even entirely made up, like "wagonblast" or "ricockulous"- will just repeat in my head.

[archanglrobriel]

I love your fuckbrain comix if for no other reason than the fact that they make me feel not so alone or singular in my own fuckbrainity. I -loathe- sticky sensations and let me tell you, as a whole fag? Not the best attitude to have as it's rather limiting in certain circumstances. *ahem* Syrup drives me up a friggin wall too. And god forbid I feel any sort of residual stickiness from something unexpected, like touching something at Michael's and realizing with horror that the glue on it wasn't dry. Or tree sap. Dear god, the weeping and gnashing of teeth that used to happen because of tree sap exposure...it was EPIC. My Grandma swore I ruined Christmas for all time with my "ballyhooing." I got a bit of relief with pills for awhile, but then they just...stopped working

[fairyarmadillo]

Are you talking about sticky lube? Have you tried Swiss Navy? It's silicone and very slippery and un-sticky. HI I AM A PERFECT STRANGER TELL ME ABOUT YOUR LUBE ISSUES!

[archanglrobriel]

*laugh* Well yeah, lube is part of it, but the other part is the um....inevitable end result of having sex with men. I remember my first time and it ended with "STICKY!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! Get it off me! Get it off me!!" which wasn't the reaction that anyone in the room was expecting or wanted.
Aaaand now I don't think we're perfect strangers anymore, after this particular conversational cul de sac. Hi! Nice to meet you. *grin*

[iamangelachase]

This comment right here? Pretty sure it's the reason Ben loves you. Just sayin'.