finally reclaiming my assertiveness

Mar 26, 2018 18:24


icon: "strong (a photo of me in warm light with my hair down around my face, staring intensely into the camera in a defiant mood)"I have become more assertive again since getting on the right meds for my anxiety (starting last October I think). I wasn't expecting this but it really highlights how much my reaction to danger is to become meek and ( Read more... )

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queerbychoice March 28 2018, 05:23:43 UTC
I'm glad you've got your assertiveness back!

I think I have a lot of the same superpower "to not notice what people think of me." I am more in awe, however, of this other superpower you seem to have that I do not have:

"I feel less likely to fall for anyone who doesn't treat me as the incredible person that I am. I look back a year ago and see myself trying to convince Evelyn that I was worth their time, and I feel sad for past-me that I was so lost that I could feel like it was okay for me to be in a relationship that made me feel like I had no magic and no appeal. I'm not going to do that again. If someone doesn't make it very clear that they are really fucking into me, and tell me why, I'm not spending time on them in the hopes that eventually they will acknowledge my worth."I've been there and done that so many times, and with the benefit of hindsight I also can look back and see myself trying to convince various people that I was worth their time, and I feel sad for past-me and recognize that I shouldn't do that anymore. But to ( ... )

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basil_00 March 28 2018, 07:38:03 UTC
"...It just passive aggressively pushes them to validate yours. I won't allow people to say that shit to me any more."
That's great.

Also, the entirety of the last paragraphs here. You really get rolling and it is fantastic. You improved my day. Thank you.

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