really fucking terrible week (anika gabe biofam etc) - depressive crash

[belenen]

icon: "tenebrous (a shadowy orange-light photo of my face, looking down, with an achingly sad expression)"This has been an incredibly hard week. Anika attacked me and scorned my efforts and was cruel to me. I feel drained and devalued every time I think about it

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[topaznebula]

*read and empathized with this*

[belenen]

<3

[mac_arthur_park]

I'm here and I'm listening. I'm sorry things suck so much right now.

[belenen]

thank you <3

[meteorology]

I'm sorry that you're going through such a bad time, particularly in realising that someone whom you love quite possibly doesn't accept you. I hope that you can take comfort in the people around you and that things get better.

[belenen]

thank you for the empathy <3

[queerbychoice]

Anika's actions are not your fault.

Gabe's actions are not your fault.

Your biofamily's actions are not your fault.

You've listed many valid reasons to be upset, but you haven't listed any that justify your feeling like a sodden lump of disgusting worthlessness. You didn't name a single thing you did that makes you seem disgusting or worthless. I'm sure you aren't perfect, but I have a hard time believing that if you met someone exactly like you on the street and they told you all about themself, you would think they were disgusting and worthless.

If other people mistreat you, that is not a reason to join in and mistreat yourself also.

I hope you'll take good care of yourself and feel better soon.

[belenen]

That is very true that I wouldn't feel negatively toward a stranger with my characteristics. Thank you for your firm comment; I appreciated it at the time and now that I'm not in that bad space it makes me feel valued and cared for. <3

[feladrone]

I'm sorry you had such an awful week :( You didn't deserve any of that.

[belenen]

thank you <3