Feel bad about not writing / utter failure at making friends / SDS

[belenen]

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October 2:
I feel alienated from myself due to not writing. There's just so much going on all the time and I crave rest and feel like I never get any time. I start writing something on my

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[esaatas]

oh gosh, yeah. I don't make friends easily and when one falls into my lap, I have no idea what to do. I feel so out of practice! And like you said, I don't even try. The people I talk to now are people that reached out to me first, and we both stick around.

~_~ ugh. I feel you. how 2 fran???

And I'm trying to write. Really, I am. I'm brain-fried, or things are a jumble, or.. yeah. Writer's Block is the worst.

[lorelei_sakti]

I feel rather incapable of making new friends lately too. Keep trying to figure out if it's fear of rejection, or something else. I've always had an easier time opening up around people I know I'll never see again. I think it's because I am not feeling anxious about the future of the friendship, since it's only for a few minutes or a few days, and my brain lets me be myself more, and it gets out of "cautious, trying to blend in" mode.

[raidingparty]

It's a tangent, but I've felt a roughly-related difficulty with flirting. Really hard time getting people's attention when I was trying, and people give me their number or call me cute or whathaveyou when I wasn't trying at all.
One of the reasons things work so well with my current partner, it rarely seems like an effort and even work doesn't feel like "work", if that makes sense.