at least the phone works! I do sincerely thank God for that; Ben and I are both so stressed, him mostly for logical reasons and me mostly for emotional reasons
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I hope you get some answers to your questions and unravel the mysery that is Rebecca somewhat. I'm not going to ask you to try and not be too crushed if it doesn't work out again or anythign like that - even when you know something mightn't work, it still hurts when it doesn't.
Sadly, and even though it shouldn't be like this, I think far too often friendships are not always reciprocal. I have always found myself to be the giver and I now tend to keep myself at arm's length from certain people to protect myself until I can be sure that I won't hurt myself. I also think people hurt others in this respect without meaning to.
I am confused about something. In this post you state that you do not feel as if you have extra energy for a new friendship yet I recall a recent post or perhaps comment where you spoke of having available emotions for more than one soul-friend. This is confusing to me because one thought does not seem to match with the other.
yes, heh, it confuses me too. But I'm not actually contradicting myself -- I DO have enough room in my heart for more than one soulfriend. But that doesn't mean I have the energy to invest in a new person right now. hmmm, how better to explain... it's that I am open to the possibility, and believe that in my life I will have more soulfriends than Ben and Hannah, but right now I feel rather drained, not like I have energy to just give away in hopes of a friendship. So I think I'll have more soulfriends, but at this time I don't have the extra energy to go seeking them out.
Despite how it turned out, I'm glad you talked to Rebecca. At least she was honest with you about what she can give you instead of leading you on and wasting your time like others have done to you in the past. Now you can move past all of this and focus your energies on people who love you and want to be a part of your life!
You've certainly had joy and heartbreak in the friendship arena this year. Even though Rebecca is not feeling the same way you are friendship-wise, that doesn't mean your feelings are wasted or unneeded. Perhaps you can invest some time in just praying for her and thinking about her... the fruits of that labor will return to you, of course, even if you don't see her and see the blessings it has in HER life.
Hold her loosely... she's got a different idea about friendship now than you do, and that's okay. Just different, not better or worse. Count it a blessing that you knew her at all, and be joyful for all the friendships you have that ARE strong and thriving and fulfilling. You never know what the future will bring. The two of you may find yourselves closer than ever.
well, it's a sucky situation to be in for sure. you can't make anyone commit to you, although that doesn't make it hurt any less. but you know, God has a plan for everything and I'm sure she was in your life for a reason while she was there, and if God wants her there again someday, she will be there. keep your chin up, you know this will be all right, and I will say a little prayer for you right now.
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I am confused about something. In this post you state that you do not feel as if you have extra energy for a new friendship yet I recall a recent post or perhaps comment where you spoke of having available emotions for more than one soul-friend. This is confusing to me because one thought does not seem to match with the other.
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Hold her loosely... she's got a different idea about friendship now than you do, and that's okay. Just different, not better or worse. Count it a blessing that you knew her at all, and be joyful for all the friendships you have that ARE strong and thriving and fulfilling. You never know what the future will bring. The two of you may find yourselves closer than ever.
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