breakdown of faith, outpouring... that poisonous question

[belenen]

I think God arranged for the computer to break when it did… lately I have been too busy to peer into my own heart. Before I was working I had plenty of time… nowadays I'm either working, at counseling, or on the computer, never spending time alone with myself

Comments

[dianoia]

I think perhaps that God's idea of trust and rescue are different from ours. The promises we have from God are that he will never destroy us and he will always deliver us in our time of need. My grandmother has always said that God never gives us burdens to heavy for us to handle - and I think that is what is part of the first promise

[belenen]

I think differently. I think it is the glory of God to conceal a matter, and the glory of humans to uncover it. I think we were meant to question, to seek and search and find. We were never meant to blindly accept anything without reason. If we were, we wouldn't really have free will.

Of course I don't think God can be completely or even mostly understood... but his ways of interacting with us can be understood, even if it is only in simple terms. We just have to keep asking, seeking.

Also, I don't think God ever sends us pain, or wishes it on us for our eventual good. I think all pain is a result of satan's work and human fallenness, never God's plan. God can work it for good, but he doesn't deliberately bring it on us. Discomfort, yes; actual harm, no.

[dianoia]

maybe what I am about to say is all matter of semantics ... but

[belenen]

When I said that about God concealing stuff, I was paraphrasing from Proverbs 25:2 -- "It is the glory of God to conceal a matter; to search out a matter is the glory of kings."

I suppose we simply disagree -- I feel that there is no such thing as a wrong question, and I think all searching for truth is beneficial.

[sidheblessed]

I can see where you're coming from. I think it's very natural to wonder why God couldn't or wouldn't save you. Why he let one of his children go through that.

I do believe though that God, by whichever name you call them, never gives you any burden you can't survive. I think there is always a reason. Maybe this is something you needed to go through to learn to be so compassionate or to be as strong as you are.

I don't know though. I'm not Deity after all.

*hugs*

[belenen]

I don't think God ever sends us pain, or wishes it on us for our eventual good. I think all pain is a result of satan's work and human fallenness, never God's plan. God can work it for good, but he doesn't deliberately bring it on us. Discomfort, yes; actual harm, no. That's the difference between 'trials' and 'tribulations.'

Thanks for caring. *hugs back*