Comments | belenen: counseling -- trust, paula and spencer, forgiveness

belenen

counseling -- trust, paula and spencer, forgiveness

Apr 09, 2005 03:36

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wynnes, recovery / therapy / healing, biofamily

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sidheblessed April 11 2005, 09:48:08 UTC

That's good that Yvonne was so nice and willing to listen to you. It's wonderful that's she's healed so well too!

I reckon your counsellor would approve. And rememebr - any counsellor that judges you isn't worth it!

belenen April 13 2005, 07:42:11 UTC

thank you! it was very encouraging.

I think she would approve too, and even if she didn't approve she wouldn't judge me... but I have never had good experiences with showing my 'unusual' side to older Christians, so I hestitate. Fear of being burned, you know?

shespoke April 11 2005, 13:10:22 UTC

I know what you mean about having that 5% of you decide for all of you not to tell someone something for fear of judgement. :/ I admire you for continuing on with your counseling. I'm sure if you keep working through this one day you will be one of those completely healed people as well. <3

belenen April 13 2005, 07:43:34 UTC

*hugs* I think so too, even though sometimes it seems eons away...

x_forqet_me_not April 11 2005, 15:14:57 UTC

I think any wound can heal. When i first went to counseling i was afraid of being judged about everything. I didnt want to be open. But after i was, she could actually help me, she knew me. She didnt judge, she helped me to fix things and to look at things different. Now i love going to talk to her because i know w/e i say she wont judge me and tell me how horrible i am. I dont have to hide things with her or be afraid. Shes probably the only person in my life that i was just say things too.

i dont really know why i just said all that... sry for blabbling.

I hope things get better ♥

belenen April 13 2005, 07:46:07 UTC

honestly, I feel certain that even if she didn't approve she wouldn't judge me... but I haven't had any good experiences with showing my 'unusual' sides to older people whom I respect, so I'm afraid to trust her... But I think in time I'll get over that enough, and I think it will REALLY help me heal when I do.

goleafs87 April 11 2005, 16:22:01 UTC

it's great that you have someone some wonderful and caring in your life. I know wounds take a long time to heal but given enough time and enough love any wound can heal. Just stick to those that love you and want to help you, it also sounds like you have a pretty deep faith in God as well which will go a long way in the healing

belenen April 13 2005, 07:53:50 UTC

Thank you. I'm really appreciating your comments.

12thknight April 11 2005, 17:14:14 UTC

ah, I'll take a different tack ( ... )

belenen April 13 2005, 08:00:24 UTC

The problem is, I can't move on until I let go of my anger and bitterness, which is tied up in my unforgiveness. I've tried but it just doesn't work. I want to be happy and free and not keep carrying this anger and pain that wells up in me. I could just shove it down, but it would still be hurting me, and I would not be able to be healed.

I think I need to be able to differentiate between forgiveness and acceptance. They seem like the same thing to me, but really, forgiveness is letting go of your right to get paid back; not accepting what they did as okay, but giving up on revenge. I can't seem to get them sorted out just now.