This just sums it all up! I am sitting here feeling shitty like a friend has really fucked me over somehow. And yet I feel bad for Cas too. Its like if Dean had only sat down and had a little heart to heart, this shit might not have happened D:
I was so sure I'd have tears watching it, but I didn't. I'll probably just randomly burst into tears later when I think about it all.
Oh! And POST IT :D I've been toying with a short idea for Cas before this episode drowning his sorrows in a bar somewhere and talking out his 'family' problems with the bartender or someone else in the bar.
It hurt SO MUCH when Cas was like, "Stand behind me just this once, because I asked you to" and Dean wouldn't. I KNOW Dean felt betrayed. I KNOW he thought bad things would happen (and they did) if Cas opened the door to purgatory. I KNOW he was having flashbacks to what happened to Sam when he let Lucifer in, and how wrong that went, and the idea of it happening to his other brother (which Cas totally is lol we've all conveniently forgotten about Adam, poor thing) terrified him, but he reacted to it the wrong way. Cutting him off only made it worse, it only made him more alone. JFC, DEAN, WOULD IT HAVE KILLED YOU TO GIVE HIM A HUG? And Sam being the one who stabbed him...Almighty Cas is probably going to resent that. It was just painful seeing both Dean and Sam giving us the usual, "I won't give up on my brother/I won't leave my brother alone" lines and not extending that to Cas. Cas has done EVERYTHING for them. He's saved them and helped them and sacrificed for them time and time again. He has deserved the right to have them try to
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OH ALSO - this shit caused me to write an actual drabble last night. I WROTE. A. DRABBLE. About Lisa. That's how upset I was. Never have written a real fic in my liiiiiife. I'm debating whether to post it? asfhghdfslgkg
I think this is the first year EVER that, the more I think about everything that happened, the worse I feel. Usually analyzing it and talking about the boys makes me feel better, but no, this time I've gone from pretty okay to sort of nauseous to outright wrecked. WTF. I DON'T KNOW WHAT MY FEELINGS ARE DOING. STOP IT, SHOW.
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This just sums it all up! I am sitting here feeling shitty like a friend has really fucked me over somehow. And yet I feel bad for Cas too. Its like if Dean had only sat down and had a little heart to heart, this shit might not have happened D:
I was so sure I'd have tears watching it, but I didn't. I'll probably just randomly burst into tears later when I think about it all.
Oh! And POST IT :D I've been toying with a short idea for Cas before this episode drowning his sorrows in a bar somewhere and talking out his 'family' problems with the bartender or someone else in the bar.
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My shows are all done now too!! Guh, now for the long wait! I do watch Big Brother over the summer, but it's not the same
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Haha omg Big Brother. It got totally cancelled over here but then another channel picked it up.
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Relevant.
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I've been feeling so drained all day. Its truly pathetic XD
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