I've lost the ability to think straight once again. the words in head are fumbling around like mexican jumping beans on acid. at some point, not too long ago, things started to eventually just slip away, like wet paint running down a fresh new canvas. it seems as if everything managed to go wrong, no matter how small or petty it was, it woudl take ( Read more... )

so I've noticed I neeeever update this thing anymore, my sincere apologies. not a lot had been happening lately. school's almost over, yessssss, and I'm still searching for a horse :p kinda sucks ( Read more... )

I did it, yes! one point for me!! I seriously didn't think I was gonna work up the nerve to say it, but eventually I managed to process the words to say it. I don't know why I was so nervous though. I worked up a sweat just thinking about it I was so nervous. I guess it was due to the fear of rejection or fear of disapproval. but then I blurted it ( Read more... )

I have found the perfect remedy for being stress/tired/aggitated/and just over all bored off your arse. all you need is some sushi, green tea, a cute little puppy with missing hair, and Red Hot Chili Peppers. amazing I know, but it works! though I still have quite a load on my shoulders, I think it's the seaweed in the sushi that makes it feel oh ( Read more... )

ready for a night of excitment and thrill, and what do I get? one of my closest companions turning away any respect I ever thought they had for me, or that I had for them. I feel like I'm overacting, according to a few. and then there's others who agree, so I'm sticking to it. I just hope nothing like it happens again, or it won't be a pretty sight

To see you when I wake up, is a gift I didn't think could be real ( Read more... )

I know it's been a while since I wrote in this thing, but maybe that's why I feel so frustrated. having not written my thoughts out in words for me to see, I just keep it to myself knowing people don't want nor need to hear it. isn't it the truth? unless it has something benefitial to them, half the time people could care less to hear about ( Read more... )

so it's been a tid bit since I've updated you all on wats new and happenin. lets see, not too long ago I turned 17 on Dec. 30th. yep, that was cool. went to the city with my mom and shopped, pigged out on expensive food that I'll probably never have the chance to afford again, kicked back at the St. Francis hotel, and walked around the streets of ( Read more... )

I jus wrote out probably the longest entry I've ever written in this thing... but of course I lost it due to my piece of shit computer. maybe that says something about some people shouldn't read it. watever, I'm over it, I don't wanna think about anything anymore...