my heart only breaks when its b e a t i n g......

[beach_hunni]

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i feel like my life is falling apart in front of my face, i havent felt this way in almost 2years. college is ending in 2weeks, Joe's ruining my life, and Pat now doesnt want ne thing to do with me l i a r.

this summer.. im starting over, no more Joe, no more lying + no more who i used to be. I will come back to college

Comments

[kac_]

I really don't know you that well but from what i have read about your life you really don't seem like a bad person...<33 and I don't think you should change your self just because people want you too.. you should just be yourself and if no one likes it they can get over it lol <33 I hope you get everything strightend? (sp) out *

[beach_hunni]

yea i know, thats exactly how i have always felt.. i really dont care bout what ppl think of me, i do what i want, but like... this time it just kinda hurt.. i didnt realize what i had... well till i dont ne more

[angelestrella]

What the hell is Joe doing now? Geez I want to beat his ass sometimes lol. Exs suck, being this age sux b/c you're still figuring out who you are, in which case people love to pick out your flaws :o( Do what makes ya happy :o)

[beach_hunni]

yea ex's do suck!!! i hate him, sometimes i wish i never went out with him in the first place, cuz i wouldnt have to deal with this shit right now.

[angelestrella]

I know how you feel!

[naughtybabs17]

iloveyou hun and good luck with everything...

remember...dont change yourself for anyone else, change yourself for you. be who you think is best.if you ever need to talk im here for ya<333

[beach_hunni]

thank you, yea its just something i need to do, cuz im ruining shit by being who i am... i feeel i need a change in my life + things need to be diff.

[gcchickie]

Joes a cunt.
I love you lauren! you're an amazing girl and i dont think your a liar and i have known you for how many years now? exactly? i lost count too! but really you're a great girl. The summer should always have been dedicated to you. I heart you!!
<3
Rosie

[beach_hunni]

thank you!! i know im not a liar, but i just feel like 1... i dunno how to explain it.

[lilkash]

hey bebe. first off im here for u, second im glad u realized things before it was
too hard to change ya know. i kno u can do it, sometimes it takes enough people
to tell us whats wrong in order for us to see it but ure not a bad person, i kno ure not
i love u xoxo <3

[beach_hunni]

thank you, that meant alot. i was just real sad last night bout the whole thing, i dunno it just kinda hurts. i dunno if u understand, but id idnt realizei liked him that much, until last night when he said he didnt wanna hve ne thing to do with me

[lilkash]

i know, ive been there :( it hurts like a bitch when someone says that to you xo <3

[beach_hunni]

well we talked last night. cant remember how it ended