I just love how neurotic im becoming.
i absolutely hate myself for it.
Im seriously contemplating moving to the mountains of Asia to live in solitude.
haha, okay now thats a joke.

I mean, i know Josh is using Man-lika as a way to get back at me.
But he officially might have just lost this game he thought he was playing.
He doesnt get toying with me, ( Read more... )

I think that I have become unloveable.
I'm not sure if thats a word,
but i just think relationship wise.
ill never find anyone insane, and perfect enough for me.
and i'll never be good for anyone.
no one wants me.
the end.

it really sucks, in a painful way sometimes....
feeling im not a part of it all.
when it pertains to my bestfriends and the parties and the love and the fun
all i can say is :(

this is an ode to dickheads.
and trying to get to me.
thanks.

i think the banana thing in my mailbox is kind of funny.
and just a tad fucked up. i do live with old people, but whatever.
im over it and people in general.

soooo blake is staring at the computer screen ( Read more... )

the incapability of being happy is a sad thing ( Read more... )

i feel like someone just ripped out my insides.

she told me
don't let him
get a hold on you,
because it's hard
-if possible to let it go

i wouldnt doubt it if he hated me ( Read more... )

everything screwing up in a time span of about 3 hours definitely does not make me happy. i hate myself so much right now. i need something to make my day, since everyone seems so keen on screwing it up. Funny, but im excited to see Gabby tonite. Hopefully some playstation can cheer me up?