Songs for Daddy- Chapter 35: Breaking Inside (part 1)
Author: bar_ohki
Title: Songs for Daddy
Rating: This chapter is rated T.
Summary: After receiving a phone call, Hiruma abandons his job, his football team, and his friends, disappearing into nothing. After several years pass, Mamori finds a strange girl in her Kindergarten class, a girl strange enough to have the only remaining connection to the missing quarterback….
Notes: Let Me Go is by 3 Doors Down, I do not own it.
Links: To song on youtube: Video
To lyrics of song: Lyrics
To a list of chapter links: Links
To chapter 33: Let Me Go
To Breaking Inside Part 2: Here
To Breaking Inside Part 3: And Here
Songs for Daddy
Chapter 34: Let Me Go
“Part of healing is hurting. You’re going to want to shoot me at least once by the end of this, but in the end you’ll feel better. Please keep that in mind before we start.”
“Tch.”
“No, really, please do Hiruma.”
“Why are you fucking shaking?”
“Because you’re the only person I know that might actually shoot me.”
“Oh.”
The alarm is set to go off at 5:30 am, but Hiruma does not get up at this time. He slams his hand on the snooze button and dozes off for another thirty minutes. This is mostly because when his real alarm comes in and gets up, Hiruma would much rather be coming out of a light doze than a deep sleep.
Pitter-patter of tiny feet is the warning of the real alarm. It comes into his room at 6:00 am exactly then pounces onto his bed and snuggles up next to him and blows on his ear until there’s an audible grunt.
“Morning Papa!” Emiko smiled. She was perky, cheery, and excited at 6:00 am, an hour Hiruma had no business being awake at. And around that time the dog would jump into the bed and start trying to lick his face. Then the damn alarm clock would go off at 6:02 am. After turning the bloody thing off, Hiruma would yawn and get out of bed, hungry puppy and child at his heels.
“Tell me about Chizue.”
“Fuck, too much to say. Where the hell should I start?”
“At the beginning of course.”
“…?”
“When you first met her.”
“Oh.” “It started with my fucking old bastard giving me a phone call-”
“-I don’t think that’s where your problems started.”
“Fucking baldy?”
“When did you life start to get messed up?”
“…When that fucking bastard left.”
“Let’s start there then.”
“But you wanted to know about fucking Chizue-!”
“-I do, I really do Hiruma. But the start of your problems goes back further than her. If anything we do is going to be productive, it has to be done at the source of the matter.”
“You’re saying that all this shit in my life steams from my father?”
“It might not, we’re here to find out.”
Breakfast, in the Hiruma household is usually a simple affair. Being the only adult, Hiruma starts up the rice cooker and throws some toast in the toaster. Emiko feeds Chizue and pours herself and Papa small glasses of orange juice. By this time Hiruma’s had a cup of coffee and started the tea for Emiko (decaf of course).
Adding a bit of milk and fresh fruit to the rice, Hiruma makes a simple rice porridge and serves it to himself and his daughter. Emiko happily munches down her meal and asks her Papa if they have any plans for the day.
“You’ve got school and I have work and practice.” Hiruma answered.
“Are you going to meet with Yukimitsu-san?” Emiko asked, her eyes wide and slightly worried.
“Not today.” Hiruma answered.
“-no warning, well to me at least. Don’t have a clue if he told Mom or not. One day we were going to the airport and he was going off to make himself famous in America.”
“I see.”
“So I watched the news and read the papers waiting for him to become famous. Never happened. He came back two years later, hadn’t sent me and Mom money so we were kind of poor.”
“Something happened, didn’t it?”
“They had a fight, only time I’ve seen them fight. Mom was mad, so she went out to go cool her head and he asked me to follow her-” “-She died. I watched her die!”
Dishes were next, Emiko likes to help with this. She gets to dry all the dishes for Papa. By now it is 7:00 am, two hours until both Hiruma and Emiko are due at their respective places. This is typically when Azuma-san from next door comes over to chat with Emiko while Hiruma dashes through the shower. Once showered, shaved, and dressed, Hiruma returns to the living room and relieves Azuma-san from her duties.
By now it is about 7:35 and Hiruma gets to spend the next 25 minutes getting Emiko ready for school. Most of this time is spent brushing her fine hair and putting ribbons in it.
At 8:00 am, Hiruma drops Chizue off with his neighbors and he and Emiko leave to go to work and school. He lifts her up so that she can push the elevator button to take them down to Papa’s car.
“Did you ever talk to him about what happened?”
“No.”
“Do it.”
“Fucking-!”
“-This is a doctor’s order Hiruma Youichi, do you hear me?”
“Y-yes…!”
There’s a repeat of the car seat conversation and they buckle in and get on their way. Hiruma drives to the school first, parking at a city park about a block away. Both of them smile happily while they chat about random things on the walk to school. Upon arrival at the school building the mothers there bombard Hiruma with questions and Emiko covers her ears. Typically Anezaki creates a diversion and rescues the two from the mothers.
“Good morning Emiko-chan.” Anezaki greeted the little girl.
“’Morning Mom.” Emiko smiled back shyly. Hiruma blushed a little, he always does, when Emiko said that.
“Good morning Youichi.” Anezaki had taken to using his given name.
“Good morning.” Hiruma was a little too embarrassed to try and say ‘Mamori’ that morning. Sometimes he isn’t embarrassed and does address her by her given name.
“I’ll see you at dinner then?” Anezaki asked.
“Of course.” Hiruma huffed then knelt down and gave Emiko a hug. “You be good at school today, okay?”
“Okay Papa!” Emiko then gave her Papa a kiss on the cheek.
Hiruma waved as his baby girl scampered off to meet her friends. Saying good bye to Emiko in the mornings is hard for him. Anezaki understood this and put a comforting hand on his shoulder.
“Have a good day at work.” Anezaki wished him and also gave him a peck on the cheek.
“Yeah, yeah.” Hiruma waved it off and started to walk back to his car.
“He’s still a bastard.”
“Yes and you look a lot better now.”
“What?”
“You look visibly more relaxed.”
“Tch.”
“Now, please pick up where you left off.”
“I moved out when I was 12 and didn’t talk to him for years. I met Kurita and Musashi and you know the rest of the fucking story.”
“No I don’t. Why did you marry Chizue?”
“That.”
“Yes, that.”
“It started when I got a call from my fucking old man…"
Link to Part 2.
Title: Songs for Daddy
Rating: This chapter is rated T.
Summary: After receiving a phone call, Hiruma abandons his job, his football team, and his friends, disappearing into nothing. After several years pass, Mamori finds a strange girl in her Kindergarten class, a girl strange enough to have the only remaining connection to the missing quarterback….
Notes: Let Me Go is by 3 Doors Down, I do not own it.
Links: To song on youtube: Video
To lyrics of song: Lyrics
To a list of chapter links: Links
To chapter 33: Let Me Go
To Breaking Inside Part 2: Here
To Breaking Inside Part 3: And Here
Songs for Daddy
Chapter 34: Let Me Go
“Part of healing is hurting. You’re going to want to shoot me at least once by the end of this, but in the end you’ll feel better. Please keep that in mind before we start.”
“Tch.”
“No, really, please do Hiruma.”
“Why are you fucking shaking?”
“Because you’re the only person I know that might actually shoot me.”
“Oh.”
The alarm is set to go off at 5:30 am, but Hiruma does not get up at this time. He slams his hand on the snooze button and dozes off for another thirty minutes. This is mostly because when his real alarm comes in and gets up, Hiruma would much rather be coming out of a light doze than a deep sleep.
Pitter-patter of tiny feet is the warning of the real alarm. It comes into his room at 6:00 am exactly then pounces onto his bed and snuggles up next to him and blows on his ear until there’s an audible grunt.
“Morning Papa!” Emiko smiled. She was perky, cheery, and excited at 6:00 am, an hour Hiruma had no business being awake at. And around that time the dog would jump into the bed and start trying to lick his face. Then the damn alarm clock would go off at 6:02 am. After turning the bloody thing off, Hiruma would yawn and get out of bed, hungry puppy and child at his heels.
“Tell me about Chizue.”
“Fuck, too much to say. Where the hell should I start?”
“At the beginning of course.”
“…?”
“When you first met her.”
“Oh.” “It started with my fucking old bastard giving me a phone call-”
“-I don’t think that’s where your problems started.”
“Fucking baldy?”
“When did you life start to get messed up?”
“…When that fucking bastard left.”
“Let’s start there then.”
“But you wanted to know about fucking Chizue-!”
“-I do, I really do Hiruma. But the start of your problems goes back further than her. If anything we do is going to be productive, it has to be done at the source of the matter.”
“You’re saying that all this shit in my life steams from my father?”
“It might not, we’re here to find out.”
Breakfast, in the Hiruma household is usually a simple affair. Being the only adult, Hiruma starts up the rice cooker and throws some toast in the toaster. Emiko feeds Chizue and pours herself and Papa small glasses of orange juice. By this time Hiruma’s had a cup of coffee and started the tea for Emiko (decaf of course).
Adding a bit of milk and fresh fruit to the rice, Hiruma makes a simple rice porridge and serves it to himself and his daughter. Emiko happily munches down her meal and asks her Papa if they have any plans for the day.
“You’ve got school and I have work and practice.” Hiruma answered.
“Are you going to meet with Yukimitsu-san?” Emiko asked, her eyes wide and slightly worried.
“Not today.” Hiruma answered.
“-no warning, well to me at least. Don’t have a clue if he told Mom or not. One day we were going to the airport and he was going off to make himself famous in America.”
“I see.”
“So I watched the news and read the papers waiting for him to become famous. Never happened. He came back two years later, hadn’t sent me and Mom money so we were kind of poor.”
“Something happened, didn’t it?”
“They had a fight, only time I’ve seen them fight. Mom was mad, so she went out to go cool her head and he asked me to follow her-” “-She died. I watched her die!”
Dishes were next, Emiko likes to help with this. She gets to dry all the dishes for Papa. By now it is 7:00 am, two hours until both Hiruma and Emiko are due at their respective places. This is typically when Azuma-san from next door comes over to chat with Emiko while Hiruma dashes through the shower. Once showered, shaved, and dressed, Hiruma returns to the living room and relieves Azuma-san from her duties.
By now it is about 7:35 and Hiruma gets to spend the next 25 minutes getting Emiko ready for school. Most of this time is spent brushing her fine hair and putting ribbons in it.
At 8:00 am, Hiruma drops Chizue off with his neighbors and he and Emiko leave to go to work and school. He lifts her up so that she can push the elevator button to take them down to Papa’s car.
“Did you ever talk to him about what happened?”
“No.”
“Do it.”
“Fucking-!”
“-This is a doctor’s order Hiruma Youichi, do you hear me?”
“Y-yes…!”
There’s a repeat of the car seat conversation and they buckle in and get on their way. Hiruma drives to the school first, parking at a city park about a block away. Both of them smile happily while they chat about random things on the walk to school. Upon arrival at the school building the mothers there bombard Hiruma with questions and Emiko covers her ears. Typically Anezaki creates a diversion and rescues the two from the mothers.
“Good morning Emiko-chan.” Anezaki greeted the little girl.
“’Morning Mom.” Emiko smiled back shyly. Hiruma blushed a little, he always does, when Emiko said that.
“Good morning Youichi.” Anezaki had taken to using his given name.
“Good morning.” Hiruma was a little too embarrassed to try and say ‘Mamori’ that morning. Sometimes he isn’t embarrassed and does address her by her given name.
“I’ll see you at dinner then?” Anezaki asked.
“Of course.” Hiruma huffed then knelt down and gave Emiko a hug. “You be good at school today, okay?”
“Okay Papa!” Emiko then gave her Papa a kiss on the cheek.
Hiruma waved as his baby girl scampered off to meet her friends. Saying good bye to Emiko in the mornings is hard for him. Anezaki understood this and put a comforting hand on his shoulder.
“Have a good day at work.” Anezaki wished him and also gave him a peck on the cheek.
“Yeah, yeah.” Hiruma waved it off and started to walk back to his car.
“He’s still a bastard.”
“Yes and you look a lot better now.”
“What?”
“You look visibly more relaxed.”
“Tch.”
“Now, please pick up where you left off.”
“I moved out when I was 12 and didn’t talk to him for years. I met Kurita and Musashi and you know the rest of the fucking story.”
“No I don’t. Why did you marry Chizue?”
“That.”
“Yes, that.”
“It started when I got a call from my fucking old man…"
Link to Part 2.