I know that I will probably never truely trust any of my future boyfriends. I look at every potential relationship as a controling issue or an abusive relationship. I hate to say it but I think "guilty until repeatedly proven innocent". There will also be a spot in me that will never be clean. That scares me because I don't want to end up alone. ( Read more... )

Those of you who can read french will know what I'm talking about ( Read more... )

Apparently I can be in a beauty pagent. The letter will be arriving tomorrow and my first pagent thingy will take place on November 2nd. I hope this is fun. I am also trying to drop Biology II AP, it's more than whooping my butt and I put alot before it. I'm putting dance, choir, Italy, jazz choir and my scoial life before it. Oh yes, and my sanity ( Read more... )

Last night I had a really good dream. You'll have to ask me 'cause it's too ummm...good to post on here ;). I saw Bang, Bang You're Dead and it hit really close to me. I don't often like to visit that place, but sometimes...it needs to be visited. I do feel guilt. People tell me not to but, I do. Only a little bit, though. I found out that one of ( Read more... )

I think that I have just completed my first application form and am ready to submit it, and I'm a little scared. Is that normal?
love,
me.

I just went to a pagent interveiw. It was cool. I think doing something like that would be fun. I could maybe even be a model someday...maybe...possibly...phffffff. Oh well, in the words of Shakespere, "All's Well That End's Well.". If that made no sense, it's just because I'm kinda tired.
love,
the tiny dancer.

I think that the song "Homeland" is getting to me. I'm starting to have dreams about it.

If I had a hat I would take it off to all of the actors and actress's of the play. It was awesome! Ben as Snug/the Lion and Catie as the orange fairy. Sooooooo great! I loved it! Wish me luck though, my first Jazz Choir performance is on Tuesday in the choir concert!
love,
the tiny dancer.

I think the music is what was wrong with my audition piece. I have now switched to the Pas de Deux from The Nutcracker Suite. I had forgotten how much I loved that peice. It has so much emotion and passion. It was really hard to find a stopping point in the music because it's so awesome. Okay, I'm done raving about how much I love this piece. Now I ( Read more... )

Do you think sending an online application is a good idea? Please give me your thoughts.
love,
the tiny dancer.