Realization Chaper 11
Jaejoong blinked his eyes rapidly as he was surprised by Yoochun’s surprise attack. He tried to push Yoochun off of him but he only pushed down on Jae’s body harder and pressed their lips closer together, his hot tongue licking Jae’s upper lip and even edging in between his mouth. Jaejoong squirmed and struggled but Yoochun merely caressed the back of Jaejoong’s head and continues his ministrations with his lips and tongue.
Jaejoong, all thoughts of his plan flying out of his head, flushed his cheeks in anger and shame. Yoochun had taken his first kiss. The one he’d been saving for his true love. For Yunho.
Jaejoong could hear the front door swing open.
“Hey guys we brought some leftovers if you want-”
There was a rustling noise and a great thud on the ground.
Yoochun finally let go of Jaejoong’s lips and they both looked up from where they were on the sofa. Jaejoong put his fingers to his lips. They felt almost swollen and tingly.
The first thing that came to Jaejoong’s eyes was of course Yunho. He stood there silently with his face frozen with shock but also a deeper more unreadable expression that he couldn’t quite identify.
Junsu also stood there though his face was almost completely taken over by surprise. It was apparent whatever he had been holding in his hand was now a crumpled heap on the floor.
Changmin, with wide eyes, silently looked back and forth between Yoochun and Jaejoong, as if confused about the whole situation.
Jaejoong knew that this was his own plan all along but he couldn’t help himself from flushing his cheeks in shame. He clutched the end of Yoochun’s shirt tentatively and hid himself slightly behind his shoulder. Soon he felt the warmth of Yoochun’s hand grab his own.
It was Yunho who was first to break the silence that had swept through the room.
“You’re fucking kidding me…”
That one utterance seemed to ring throughout the room. Before anyone knew what was going on Yunho crossed the living room in long strides to where Jaejoong was sitting and grabbed Jaejoong’s wrist, yanking him up from the sofa and out of Yoochun’s grasp. Jaejoong yelped at Yunho’s vise like grip.
Before even Yoochun or the others could stop him Yunho started dragging a struggling Jaejoong into their bedroom. He closed the door with a bang and pushed Jaejoong into the room. Jaejoong stumbled backwards from Yunho’s sheer force and he barely caught himself on top of the bed. Propping himself up on the bed Jaejoong looked up at Yunho defiantly.
The two gave each other death-glares before Jaejoong finally opened his mouth.
“What do you want Yunho.”
Yunho let out a sharp bark of laughter, that didn’t sound as if it had a drop of mirth in it. “Wow Jae, I really didn’t think you had this side to you. What are you just throwing yourself at anyone now? You didn’t have a chance with me so you’re seducing Yoochun too?”
Jaejoong just smiled bitterly. “Is that what it seems like to you?”
Yunho folded his arms over his chest and looked down at Jaejoong contemptuously. “Why can’t you think even for one second Jae. Yoochun’s your dongsaeng, and he looks up to you. What the hell are you doing leading him into this kind of…relationship.” Yunho’s last word came out with a tone of disgust.
Jaejoong slanted his eyes and looked up at Yunho from under his long bangs. “For your information, it was Yoochun who came up to me first. He said he was even in love with me. Poor him that he fell for a stupid slut like me, huh?”
Jaejoong could see Yunho’s eyebrow start to twitch, something that only happened when he was extremely angry.
Well we’ve already come this far…there’s no turning back now.
Jaejoong leaned back into the bed like a cat, stretching his long torso and neck. From the corner of his eye he could see Yunho staring at him and he smiled a little.
“Honestly I don’t know why you’re even so concerned Yunho. It’s obvious you don’t want anything to do with me anymore. What’s it to you if Yoochun does?”
Yunho glared at Jaejoong for a brief moment. After a pause he answered Jaejoong stiffly, “Everything that goes on with the members and their personal lives has an effect on the group. The members’ love lives aren’t an exception.”
Jaejoong shrugged one shoulder flippantly. “Well you don’t really have to worry about me and Chun. There’s no chance of our relationship getting the group in trouble because it’ll be contained within our personal space.”
“I can’t let you guys do that to Junsu and Changmin. It’s not fair to them.”
It was Jaejoong’s turn to laugh. “What you think our gayness will spread to the others and be a ‘bad influence’ or something.”
Jaejoong lifted himself up on the bed further and pressed his face closer to Yunho’s. Jaejoong looked into his eyes insolently. “Oh don’t be such a prude, Yunho.”
It was only a half-second before Jaejoong felt his head twist to the side sharply and his cheek burn from the resounding slap.
Jaejoong ignored the burning sting of his cheek and raised his chin to continue to look at Yunho, the insolent expression not leaving his face.
Yunho looked a little more dumbstruck by his action than even Jaejoong did but he didn’t apologize. He just stood there stonily for a few more seconds before he opened his mouth again.
“I’m not going to let you run this group into the ground. If you don’t break off whatever’s going on with Yoochun, I will.”
With those words Yunho yanked the bedroom door open and left.
As soon as Yunho left Jaejoong felt all the strength leave his body and he plopped weakly against the bed. He tentatively put his hand to his cheek. He couldn’t believe Yunho had actually hit him. His cheek didn’t hurt a lot but it still stung where Yunho’s hand had grazed his face.
Jaejoong sighed and closed his eyes gently. It wearied him and hurt his heart to have to exchange such malicious words with Yunho. Though he had kept up a tough exterior in front of Yunho, he felt it slowly coming apart as his body sank deeper into the plush of his bed.
But he knew he couldn’t stop now. He had already come too far to give up at this point.
Jaejoong curled up on his side, laying his burning cheek gently against the cool surface of his pillow.
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The two boys stared at the empty space where Yunho and Jaejoong had just been and then back at Yoochun who was now standing awkwardly in the middle of the living room.
Bending now to get the leftovers Junsu dropped on the floor, Changmin quickly picked it up and escaped to his haven, the kitchen. He couldn’t face all his hyungs right now. Everything was just pure madness.
It was just Yoochun and Junsu left in the living room.
“Chun…” Junsu hesitantly walked up to Yoochun with an anxious look on his face. He reached out his hand to lightly grasp Yoochun’s shoulder.
The two were silent for a while but it wasn’t long before Yoochun brushed Junsu’s hand off of him. Junsu let his hand fall to his side weakly without protest.
“What.” Yoochun muttered a little gruffly.
Junsu’s eyes were still for a second but then narrowed just the tiniest bit. It gave a sharp edge to his normally cute and open features. “Don’t ask me ‘what’! You know perfectly well…that I-”
“That you what? Why are we even talking about ‘you’ right now anyway? Isn’t this about me and Jae hyung?”
Junsu took a deep breath and he seemed to calm himself. Junsu looked up at Yoochun with earnest eyes. “Why didn’t you tell me Yoochun? I know our relationship’s a little weird these days…but we’ve never kept secrets from each other!”
Yoochun shrugged, “What’s it to you who I’m seeing? It’s not like you’re so interested in my life these days anyways, being so busy and all.”
At those words Junsu’s eyes widened a little as if he had just realized something. “Is that why you’ve been mad at me these days? Because I’ve spent so much time with Minji?”
Yoochun just cocked an eyebrow cynically at him. “Do you really think I’m so childish?”
“Honestly I thought you were jealous at first…”
Yoochun looked at Junsu sharply. Could it be???
“I thought maybe you had feelings for Minji too and I had gotten in the way.”
Yoochun felt the tension leave his body and his shoulders slumped in a sudden wave of exhaustion.
Junsu continued to muse aloud, “I guess considering Jae hyung that’s impossible though…so this really is about me not having time for you!”
Satisfied with his own simple logic, Junsu turned to Yoochun once more with his hands clasped together and a cute, pleading expression. “Oh my gosh Yoochun! I’ve been a fool!!”
And before Yoochun knew what hit him, there was a loud dolphin squeal and a bundle of energy that engulfed him in a bear hug.
“Chunahhhhh, let’s not fight anymore, okay?? I promise I’ll make lots and lots of time for you from now on! And I’ll support you and Jae hyung’s relationship too! Go soulmates!!”
Pleased with himself and apparently believing the conflict between him and Yoochun was over, Junsu was ecstatic as he looked up at Yoochun with an ear-splitting grin.
All Yoochun could do was merely sigh to himself. Junsu really didn’t have a clue.
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“Okay…what the hell was that??”
As soon as Jaejoong could get a hold of Yoochun alone, the first thing he did was drag the greaseball back to his room and start smacking him relentlessly with his Totoro cushion.
Yoochun tried to deflect the attacks waving his arms and managed to grab the cushion out of Jaejoong’s hand.
Jaejoong, red-faced and breathing a little heavily, glared at Yoochun with his hands on his hips. “Yoochun. Give. Me. The. Cushion.”
Yoochun shook his head and hid the cushion behind his back, “You’re just going to hit me again…”
“That’s because you still deserve to be hit!!!”
Jaejoong lunged for the cushion again but he couldn’t quite grab it as Yoochun kept avoiding his grasp.
Giving up Jaejoong switched to smacking Yoochun with his hand repeatedly on the back.
“Ow!! Chill Jae chill!”
“You took my first kiss!! You jerk I hate you!!!”
Yoochun managed to grab Jaejoong’s two wrists and gripped them firmly until he felt like Jaejoong had calmed down enough.
After Jae felt most of his anger die down, he sat down on his bed with a huge sigh. He was still glaring at Yoochun who sat down next to him hesitantly with his hands up slightly in a sign of surrender.
“I hate you…” Jaejoong muttered.
Yoochun grinned a little apologetically, “Sorry Jae…but it was hard for me too.”
“What do you mean? It was simple, all you had to do was lay there and pretend!”
“Well that’s the thing…it’s been a while since I’ve done that stuff with someone. It was hard for me…as a man you know.”
Jaejoong let out a sharp bark of laughter, “Yoochun, don’t tell me you were turned on by that tiniest bit of contact??”
“I wouldn’t exactly call that tiny…”
“You’re horrible.”
Yoochun just shrugged a little, “You wanted my help. You got it.”
“I didn’t expect you to go that far!! We only had to pretend to kiss…”
Yoochun just shrugged again, “You don’t get what you want by doing things half-assed…”
Jaejoong scoffed a little, “Yeah say that after you’ve confessed to Junsu alright?”
Yoochun didn’t respond to that and the both of them were silent for awhile.
Jaejoong unconsciously put his hand to his cheek to where he had been hit earlier. It still felt like it stung a little but the pain of it had gone away for the most part. What was left was only the pain in his heart as he thought back to Yunho’s ominous face. Jaejoong wasn’t really sure if he was as confident in his plan anymore. He felt his heart start to weaken upon Yunho’s harsh words and behavior towards him. Whether it was jealousy or not, he wasn’t even sure yet.
“What happened to your cheek?”
“It’s nothing…”
“Let me see.”
After a brief struggle Jaejoong let Yoochun grasp his cheek in one hand.
“He hit you?”
Yoochun’s tone was grave.
Jaejoong was silent and he just lowered his eyes. He stared at his hands in his lap.
He felt the warmth from Yoochun’s hand seem to simmer into his cheek, giving the impression of even healing his wound.
Suddenly the door of Jae’s room opened with a bang. It was Yunho.
Jae and Yoochun just looked up a little dazed at the abrupt entrance. Yoochun dropped his hand from Jae’s cheek slowly.
Yunho just stared at the two briefly with narrowed eyes and then cleared his throat.
“We’re having a group meeting in the kitchen.”
With those words he turned and left without looking back.
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A/N Hey guys, again so so sorry for the slow updates these days!! It's just I do so much writing for my english major and then by the end of the day im exhausted haha. (though writing this story is much more fun than anything i do in class!) Regardless! Hope you guys like this chapter. I'll try to be more timely from here on out. Once I get a hold on this whole school thing again....