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[bahbahbeth]

My senior year of high school, I changed a lot, more than I've changed since coming to college. Since my senior year of high school, I haven't really felt like "myself." At what point do I stop waiting to be myself again and decide that I'm just a different person?

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[bahbahbeth]

Hm. Thanks for the input. It's been 3 years, though. Seems like I should be back to "normal" by now. If I wait another year, then this "new me" will have been "me" for nearly 1/5 of my life. And I don't really feel like I'm seeing parts of me that haven't come out before--I feel like there are parts of me that are missing.

Bleh. It's weird to talk about this with someone I barely know. Heh.

[bahbahbeth]

I agree that it can be easier to talk to people I don't know, but sometimes it just doesn't feel right. By "normal," I mean normal for myself. In no way do I mean Brady-Bunch-normal, rest-of-the-world-normal, or whatever you want to call it.

I guess the reason it feels weird to talk to you about this is that you don't really know who I am, let alone who I was. So I'd have a lot of explaining to do if I wanted any specific advice. And I'm not big on explaining the inner-most workings of my mind, to anyone, except *maybe* my boyfriend and my mum. Sometimes I get in the right mood, and I feel like spilling my guts over livejournal, but those usually become private entries.

I mean, I do want to talk about this, otherwise I wouldn't have posted my question. I guess I didn't really expect anyone to answer me. I expected to not have to explain.

[scattereddark]

I've got no advice, just sympathy. "Parts of me are still missing" is a good way to put it, though.