melancholy braindump

[bad_latin]

I have a lot of crossover in my online communities. It's very hard to write about someone anywhere without someone who knows kir seeing it -- or often, ke kirself seeing it. Which is probably a good thing for me. I'd far rather go to everyone else I know and get sympathy for what so-and-so did than approach so-and-so and say, "That really bothered

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[jiawen]

Maybe come to more Mnstf parties? They're local, and the people are generally quite friendly and geeky.

Also, though, I think Internet friendships are not merely imitations of "real" friendships. The people on the other side of the wires are real people. They may not be able to interact with you in the same ways that face-to-face friends can, but they're still real. Don't get down on yourself for having mostly net-based friendships.

[bad_latin]

I really do want to go to more Mnstf parties! Everyone has always been so welcoming and fun at the events I've attended. But also intimidatingly smart and cool. I end up talking myself out of a lot of stuff that I would probably very much enjoy.

[jiawen]

Would it help to know more people better before venturing into the larger crowd? Maybe you and I should hang out sometime before a meeting?

[bad_latin]

Oh, my goodness, that would be lovely! I will definitely take you up on that offer.

[dagnycat522]

i love you and can't wait to see you in denver, and because i found the internets at a similar age, i have a similar way of dealing with people. but we are awesome and we get to go to denver and hug other libertarians.

[bad_latin]

Gryllicon was the thing I was debating about canceling on, because Hurt Feelings and Uncomfortableness and blah blah working-myself-into-a-lather-cakes. It passed. I am super duper crazy excited again.

[kdsorceress]

I don't know about other people, but please tell me if I hurt you or upset you or annoy you or insult you. I am much more likely to be clueless than malicious, and if I then know I did something wrong, I can fix it.

~Sor

[bad_latin]

Thanks for telling me -- I will keep that in mind.

I don't know if I can confidently say I'd want you to reciprocate. I hate the idea that I am hurting someone unawares, but I also hate the idea of finding out I've hurt someone -- if that makes sense. I have a deep terror of ever upsetting anyone, in a really selfish way that's all What It Says About Me and not the part where, you know, somebody else is actually getting upset. Bleh.

So, I guess, I would want you to reciprocate, but I should probably also start working on this issue with some vigor.

[kdsorceress]

Well, it's okay, since you have done nothing even remotely damaging to me.

I totally get the crushing "oh fuck I have _failed in the worst way_" thing about finding out I've hurt someone, but I figure/hope that if they like me enough to come tell me, they probably like me enough that they'll keep me around instead of banishing me forever for messing up. Or something like that.

~Sor

[skullx]

Wait, who are you?! Did we meet online?! ;)