Fic: All Your Secret Wishes Chapter 6
Jared liked Stephen as a friend and only a friend but he also didn’t want to hurt the alpha’s feelings. He knew it wasn’t a nice feeling being rejected.
Jared could feel Stephen's eyes on him and he did his best to ignore the alpha's burning stare. He knew that Stephen was looking for an answer to his request for a date. The truth was, Jared didn't want to tell Stephen his answer until after they finished their project. He didn't want his answer to reflect upon their grade.
Jared knew who his heart beat for and as nice as Stephen was, Jared knew it wasn't him.
“Jared, I don’t mean to be pushy but have you given any more thought to my offer for a date?” It had been over a week and Stephen really wanted to know if there could be something between them or not. He was gone on the omega, and while he knew that Jared wasn’t his true mate, it didn’t mean he couldn’t try. After all, not everyone was destined to find his true mate but could still find happiness. Maybe, just maybe, he and Jared could find that kind of happiness; if only Jared would give him a chance.
Jared hated hurting people. It went against his nature but Stephen really wasn't giving him much of a choice. ‘I have to let him down gently.’"Stephen you're a really nice guy and any beta or omega would be lucky to have such an alpha as yourself interested in them. But I don't have those kinds of feelings for you. I'm in love with someone else and starting something with you wouldn't be the right thing to do. I hope that you find your true mate, but I just don't think it would be fair to either of us."
"You want Jensen." Stephen couldn't hide the bitterness in his voice.
Jared could only stare at Stephen, his dark blush giving him away. "You noticed that, did you? I can't help my feelings for Jensen but I also know that he'll never look at me like that." He wasn't sure why he was defending his feelings toward Jensen to Stephen. He's not interested, should have been enough for the alpha.
Stephen shook his head and took a dangerous step forward. "You won't give me a chance because you are too busy pining over a man that might never see you as anything but a little boy that has followed him around like a little puppy begging for scraps."
Jared felt himself getting angry. "It's not like that! I know Jensen will never see me as a mate but he does care about me. Stephen, I don’t have to justify myself to you. I just don’t have those kinds of feelings for you and I hope that we can be friends.”
“No!” A dangerous growl escaped Stephen’s lips as he stared at the omega he wanted. He had never been rejected before and his alpha side wanted the omega. “If you would just give me a chance I could show you that I am a far better match for you than Jensen could ever be!”
Jared was done playing nice. “Jensen is my alpha! No one will ever be better for me than Jensen. I think you should leave, we're done here.”
For the first time since he had known Stephen, Jared found that he was afraid of the alpha. "Stephen, I really think you should go now." Jared murmured softly as he took a step back away from the snarling alpha, trying to create some distance between them.
It did little good as Stephen followed Jared move for move and soon Jared found himself pinned against the wall with Stephen bearing down on him. "You don't get to tell me no. I can smell how much you want... no, crave a knot. You have kept yourself pure in a misguided attempt at saving yourself for Jensen Ackles, an alpha that has no interest in you."
Jared didn’t even see Stephen move until he found himself pinned against the wall, held there by Stephen’s alpha strength. “We are finished here when I say we are.” Stephen hissed out his eyes burning with rage as he glared down at the trapped omega.
Fear gripped Jared like a vice grip as Stephen moved in closer and there was only one thought on his mind. ‘Jensen, I want Jensen.’
Jensen couldn't explain it; it was like a specter had reached into his chest and wrapped their cold hands around his heart. He didn't know how he knew but he knew it was Jared. Jared was in trouble.
Shoving back his chair Jensen grabbed his jacket. He didn’t care that he had an important meeting in an hour. Jared was in danger. “Kim! Cancel my meeting or see if Jeff can handle them. I need to go now!”
Kim knew of only one reason that would get Jensen so worked up and that was about Jared. She had heard rumors that true mates shared a bond; that they could sense when the other was in trouble, and that was more than true when it came to Jared and Jensen. “I’ll handle it, you just go look after Jared.”
Jensen flashed her a smile as he passed. “Thanks, Kim you are the best.”
‘Hang on baby, I’m on my way.’ Jensen vowed as he ripped out his cell phone and waited for it to connect as he rushed down the stairs. “Chris! Grab Steve and head over to my place- something’s wrong with Jared.” Jensen was grateful that Chris didn’t ask any questions and just agreed.
Danneel Harris had been one of the main female influences that Jared had growing up in his life. As a fellow omega, she taught Jared a few things to defend himself just in case some knot head couldn’t take the word no for an answer.
Slamming his foot onto Stephen’s with enough force for the alpha to take a step back, Jared let the palm of his fist fly right into Stephen’s nose. Stephen let out a howl as there was a rather satisfying crunch.
‘Good, I hope it’s broken,’ Jared thought viciously and while Stephen was tending to his nose Jared ran like hell. He needed to get to the one place where he felt safe - Jensen’s room.
As he held his more than likely broken nose whatever control Stephen had on his alpha side, it did not like being rejected.
Heart pounding in his chest, Jared pushed himself to run faster as he heard Stephen give chase after him. The only saving grace he had was Stephen did not know his way around their house.
“Ack!” Jared stumbled backward as the back of his shirt was caught in a strong hold and he found himself pinned face first to the floor with Stephen straddling him.
‘Not like this, not like this.’ Jared found himself pleading. He knew it was foolish saving himself for Jensen who will never see him as a mate, but he thought he would have a decision in who he shared his first time with.
Then suddenly the weight was gone and there was a loud thud behind him. Rolling over, Jared wanted to cry at the sight of Jensen, looking like an avenging angel with his face full of wrath. Jared knew that he was safe now. Jensen was here and he would make everything better.
Jensen was seeing red as he took in the sight of Jared cowering in the corner, his shirt ripped and barely hanging on his chest.
Chris whistled as Jensen slammed Stephen against the wall hard enough to leave a dent.
"Listen to me and listen to me well. The only reason I'm not ripping out your throat or ripping you to shreds is because Jared wouldn't want that. Jared, the man you tried to force yourself onto when he turned you down. When anyone tells you no you listen and respect that. Jared told you no and you couldn't respect that. You make me sick.” Jensen snarled at Stephen before dropping the man like he was nothing and turning his attention where it was most needed; on Jared.
"I'm here Jared. I'm here and I swear no one will hurt you like this again." Jensen promised, gathering a shaking Jared up into his arms. "Get that piece of filth out of my sight before I end up finishing the job," Jensen growled out as he did his best to comfort Jared.
"No problem, on your feet." Chris snarled, he was impressed with Jensen's restraint. If it had been him, he would have ripped Stephen apart.
Stephen couldn't look at anyone. He didn't blame Jensen for wanting to kill him. What he had done tonight was something he would never be able to forgive himself for. "I'm sorry." He knew it wasn't enough and he didn't wait around to hear Jared tell him it wasn't enough. He knew it wasn't, but it was all he could do.
Rocking Jared back and forth, Jensen wished he had the power to go back in time and stop this from ever happening. "I'm so sorry, baby. I'm so sorry. I should have been here to protect you."
"It's not your fault."Jared couldn't stand the idea of Jensen blaming himself for something he had no control of.
“Come on baby, let’s get you to bed. I think you could do with some rest.” Jensen suggested.
The last thing that Jared wanted to do was leave the comfort of Jensen’s arms but he needed to get out of these clothes; they smelled like Stephen. “Can we go to your room?” Jared asked in a small voice.
“Of course, we can baby boy.” Jensen knew that Jared felt safest in his room.
Giving a shaky nod, Jared forced his body to move up the stairs. He could feel Jensen’s worried stare on him.
Once safely in Jensen’s room, surrounded by the scent of his alpha, Jared found he could breathe again. “Could I borrow something of yours to sleep in?” Jared asked looking at the floor.
“Of course, you can.” If Jared hadn’t suggested it Jensen was going to; he wanted Amell’s scent off of Jared and Jared covered in his scent again.
Jared changed into the sweats and t-shirt that Jensen offered him while Jensen turned his back. He wasn’t ready to be alone and Jensen wasn't ready to leave him alone.
Jared couldn't stop shaking as he sat down on the bed. ‘Why can't I stop shaking?’ Jared asked himself. ‘It's not like anything happened.’ Jensen had saved him.
"It's okay to be afraid Jared, no one will think any less of you. I won't think any less of you. You went through something tonight that no one should ever go through. You have nothing to be sorry for." Jensen longed to reach out and stroke Jared's hair but wasn't sure how welcomed his touch would be.
"I really thought that Stephen was a good guy. I thought that he would respect my choices when I said no." Jared turned pleading eyes up to Jensen, "Did I lead him on?"
Jensen's heart broke at the fear in Jared's eyes. ‘I wish I punched him harder.’ Jensen thought viciously. "No! You did nothing wrong. You said no and that should have been enough for him. This is on Stephen and Stephen alone."
With shaky hands, Jared reached out for Jensen. He wasn't sure if his touch would be welcomed. After all, he was dirty.
As if he was reading Jared's mind, Jensen's hand came down to rest on Jared's hand. "You are not dirty Jared."
"Can you stay for a little bit? I don't want to be alone," Jared pleaded as he latched onto Jensen's arm.
Jensen smiled down softly at Jared. "Of course, I will. I'll stay as long as you need me to. Come on, I'll lay down with you."
Nodding his head, Jared waited until Jensen lay down on the bed before curling up against his side. A sign escaped Jared's lips as Jensen's arms wrapped around him. "I'm here, Jared, and I will keep you safe."
“I know you will and thank you, Jensen, for everything,” Jared whispered before closing his eyes in an attempt to sleep.
Jensen kept a watchful gaze over Jared. He loved watching Jared sleep; he looked so peaceful and innocent that Jensen just wanted to do everything in his power to keep Jared safe. "I swear I will do better in protecting you from harm," Jensen whispered.
Jared was sleeping in his bed. When Jensen pictured that happening, not that he actually pictured Jared in his bed, but if he had, it would have been for a very different reason then why Jared was sharing his bed.
“I will protect you from the nightmares,” Jensen vowed.
Jensen wasn't surprised when the nightmares started, he had been expecting them. The nightmares came just as Jensen predicted they would, but after a few calming words and promises, Jared drifted off back into sleep. It quickly became clear that Jared couldn't sleep- not without being wrapped up in Jensen's arms. He kept the nightmares away.
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