Now - Chapter 5 - "Playing, Fighting and Fucking"

[back_to_five]

parings: Jaemin/Minjae
rated: n-17 (smut, violence, gore, murder)
genre: angst, drama, au
length: complete
disclaimer: english isn't my native language

Changmin was a hired assassin, a cold and empty man, prepared to die any day without having never believed in love. One night, he felt his heart beat fast when he saw the pale skin and dark eyes that seemed to be a demon of sex, a succubus - the young and beautiful stripper Youngwoong. Without realizing, he was attracted by a network of lies, hatred and revenge, unable to resist his treacherous heart that fell in love with someone who wasn't who he seemed to be.


*sorry not reviewed*[Changmin's POV]

"I AM STUPID!!!" I screamed, I think my neighbor was suspicious of this fact, I don't think he would be surprised to hear me screaming it.
I could have given Jaejoong some money, but instead, I handed him my fucking wallet!
"He's has my ID."
Sure, he's with my documents. False documentation - it is common for hired killers don't walk around with their real documents... of course.

When I got home, soaked after trying to chase Jaejoong, that night, I took a long shower, so I took care of the wounds on my feet, I sat on the sofa, taking a dose of a mixture of any alcoholic beverages . Desperately trying to remember if there was something important in my wallet. If there was something that the kitten couldn't see, something that was not safe.
Only then I realized the canvas backpack on my other couch.
"He forgot his stuff."
I'm not one of those people with a sense of character, who thinks many times before to spy on other people's stuff.
I grabbed his bag and dumped the contents on the shag carpet.
The first thing I noticed was a small stuffed elephant.
Seriously?
How old are you, Kitten?
Also there was a wrinkled old notebook that I put aside because I saw various bottles and colored pills. Antidepressants.
"Oh, my dear kitten ..."
I also found an old, wrinkled photo of what I think was him and his mother , and a packet of mints.
I also found a pack of cigarettes and makeup  - i'm not surprised.
But there was no documentation.
Then I noticed his cell phone, which fell near my knee. Looking at the list of contacts , I just found a name "Jun-chan."
But if his phone was inside that backpack and the backpack was in the living room when I heard him talking on the phone ....
" He has another phone ! "

This means that maybe, just maybe, he has a double life. This Jun-chan should be someone who he wants to keep protected.
So I wrote down the number of Jun-chan on my phone. You know, for future reference. I also saved my number on his cell phone.
I rubbed my hands on my face wondering why the hell I was so worried about Jaejoong, whoever he really was.
Two days later, the doorbell rang and I ran to open the door because I was expecting a delivery service of food - if only I could cook decently.
Who was at my door was none other than Jaejoong - I would mention his full name if I knew what it was, by the way.
"Kitten."

He was wearing clothes much larger than his clothing size. I tried not to think about it , if I could avoid it. 'He slept with another gu , these clothes aren't his.'
Great . Now I 'm jealous .
"I thought I'd never see you again. " I said , without moving and he seemed to be waiting for those words.
He was almost embarrassed .

" Yo ... " he murmured softly . " I know you didn't want to see me anymore , but I ... "
"Kitten , I said it because I thought I wouldn't see you anymore. I thought you were gone forever... But I am very relieved to see you again. Don't ask me why . I'm a little confused . "
I said I 'm a little confused, but that's an understatement, the truth is that I don't recognize myself anymore. Relieved? This was a very mild word to express my feelings. But he doesn't need to know about that.

A silent awkward moment passed before I resolved to speak.
"I suppose you didn't bring food with you?"
"No, I didn't bring food. Are you hungry, Changmin-ah? "
My stomach growled and that was answer enough.
"If you want I can make lunch for you."
"I want ... But we'll have to wait for the delivery of food. "
He looked much better than the last time I saw him, less pale and of course not so angry and frustrated, though his sad aura follow him wherever he went.
"Hmmm .. Changmin-ah ... "
"Yes?"
"You gonna let me in?"
"Oh, yes, yes, of course, please."
He came into the apartment and started looking around.
"Are you looking for something?"
"I think I forgot my backpack here the other day."
"Of course, your backpack."
He was a little embarrassed. "I also..."
When he stopped what he was saying, I looked at him and frowned "You also ...?"
He sighed and scratched his neck. "I also went back to see you. That night I ... "
"You were mad."
"I'm sorry, I ..."
"It's alright."
"But I tried to kill you."

"You were having a nightmare. "
"I know but ... "
" Look, Kitten , let's not think about it anymore. You're not the first person trying to kill me. Also, you failed miserably . "
He laughed a little. I felt better for it .

"Oh This is yours." He took my wallet from the pocket of his giant sweater. " You can look if you are missing something ... You know , I didn't get a penny. "
I wanted to ask, ' Then why did you ask my wallet? ' But I thought it best to say nothing.
"Well , we can spend time having sex until the food arrives." I said and he laughed .
"I think it's an excellent idea . " He said .
But apparently the delivery of food does the same thought, because he chose that moment to arrive and I lost my excuse. Of course if Jaejoong really wanted to fuck , he wouldn't have picked up packages of food and have begun to make my lunch . But I wouldn't push him, only that he was there in my kitchen was somewhat surprising .

I didn't want to feel so happy for him actually being there, but I felt. If I could choose my happiness wasn't  directly connected to having certain person beside me.
He was poking tomatoes or something else as I watched his movements. The way his hair swayed when he made sudden movements, the way the muscles in his arm tensed.
"You'll make holes in my back if you don't stop looking at me, you know?"
I laughed, but I was embarrassed.
"You're always so focused on everything around you?"
He stopped moving and I think he was biting his lower lip because that is how he acts when you hesitate to tell me something.
Then he spoke so softly I could barely hear. "I was focused on you."
He put his finger in his mouth and I realized he had cut his finger.
This means that he cut his finger because he was paying attention on me? Or he meant that he was always focused on me?
I went to the bathroom and grabbed the first aid box, he said I was exaggerating when I did a bandage on his finger, and I replied that I wouldn't eat tomatoes seasoned with blood.

The food was delicious and he was annoyingly cocky because of it. I didn't care much because he was justified in being proud
So I asked "Let's dating?"
"What?" He choked and started coughing.
"I asked 'Would you be my boyfriend?'"
He looked at me like I was crazy.
"Are you crazy?"
I laughed. Maybe.
"Just for today. A whole day, with no offense, no tears ... and no murder attempts. "
"Changmin-ah, you serious?"
"I 'm serious , Kitten . "
Jaejoong laughed - the kind of laugh that makes me smile .
" No, you 're not serious , you can't be serious."
I got up and knelt between his thighs, stroking his thighs and looking at him " Just for today . "

He was smiling at me muttering something about how I was stupid.
"Are you sure?"
"Kitty , we're adults , it means that we can act as if we are children if we want. "
"Just for one day . "
"The best of days . "
"Changmin -ah, you're in love with me?"

I would never fall in love .
"Kitten, have you considered the possibility that I might be using this as an excuse to get laid? "
He laughed and hugged my neck , whispering in my ear " In this case , it worked."
Then I kissed him .
When I closed my eyes and feel the taste of  him was as if I was dying of thirst and finally could drink fresh water, it was like breathing again.
I missed his smelling vanilla blonde hair.
I got up in his arms and carried him into the bedroom, and when I put him gently on the bed he tried to mock me, calling me a gentleman, but he didn't ruin the moment.
I took off his shirt and kissed his chest.

He lifted my head pulling my hair and said "Don't make this serious face."
Because of it. I tried to bite his nose and we ended up fighting with pillows, and it was because of this he screamed "Let's break up!" when I knocked him down.
"The contract of temporary dating lasts the whole day!" I screamed and stretched out my hand to help him up.

He climbed onto the bed and sat on top of me, muttering "In that case, I guess I have to take advantage." And kissed me, slowly and seductively.
He took off my clothes and threw on the bedroom floor, nibbling, kissing and licking.
He whispered in my ear "After today, I'll disappear forever, though."
I wanted to scream that I wouldn't allow him to leave me. But I pretended I didn't care what he said  that - after all I have the whole day to make him fall for me.
"Wait, Kitten."
"Hmmn?"
"You're my boyfriend for the duration of that day, tell me something nice, for a change."
He stared at me, with no idea of what to tell, began to giggle, but I waited patiently.
"Don't forget, there has to be something nice, but it also has to be true."

He bit his lower lip, leaned over and whispered in my ear "I think I'm in love with your body."
So maybe I can make him fall for me, until the end of the day.
"Great, because I think I'm in love with yours too." I said, stroking his back with my hands. We kissed when he started moving provocatively over my crotch.
"Of course you're in love with my body, I am perfect."

"Haha, shut up kitten." I rolled my body over his and took off the rest of his clothes. "This time, let's do it slowly, without hurting each other."
He looked deep into my eyes, reading the deeper meaning of what I said.

We made love slowly this time. I think we're the type of people who like wild sex, but we didn't would hurt ourselves this time, at least physically ... because it was like a farewell.
I couldn't stop thinking about what he had said about disappear when the day was over.
I can't get inside his mind, I don't know what he was thinking, but he wasn't in its normal, more careful, more gentle in his movements.
Finally I feel like I can take care of someone.
We ate in bed and he dropped the ice cream in the sheet - that was the reason for  the second war pillow, and I knock him down again, of course.

We spent the entire afternoon in bed playing, fighting and fucking.
But when night came I took him to an amusement park.
"Let's go to roller coaster!" He was excited about it, but I was almost regretting to bring him to this place. I hate the roller coaster.

At some point he let my hand - because he wanted popsicle or something, and my phone rang.
"Man, I was starting to miss you, where have you been?"

"Yoochun, call me another time I'm busy here." I replied quickly, didn't want my kitten saw me on the phone and filled me with questions.
"Changmin! Don't turn off! I have another job for you ... "
I looked around and muttered "Chun, I don't wanna kill anybody."
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm out of business."

He laughed "Did you turned comedian? I almost thought you were serious. "
"I'm serious."
He hesitated to answer, I imagine that was crushing his cigarette in an ashtray.
"I'm not kidding boy... You can't do it. I need you. "

"I'm sorry, Chun. You are my friend, but I can 't do that. "
"This isn't about our friendship, Min, you know. That's our job, you can't simply 'drop out'. These people are dangerous if we don't do our part in business they will finish us. I know there is no one in this world for whom you care, but I have the safety of my little brother to worry about!"

I saw the kitten approaching, he was smiling. It was a beautiful smile.
I mumbled an apology and hung up. When Jaejoong came I hugged him so hard that probably hurt him a bit.
"Changmin-ah ... are you okay? "