rewind please
In the movie, "Click" Adam Sandler's character, Michael chooses to fast forward his life with a unique univeral remote. The remote begins to fast forward on its own and Michael misses many important moments with his family, including his father's death. As he stands in a cemetery looking at his father's headstone, he uses the remote to rewind and go back to the last time he saw his father alive. He watches his father touch him and say "I love you" and he replays that moment over and over again.
Jack and I both cried and when the movie ended, we couldn't leave the theater fast enough. Jack drove straight to the cemetery, and we both cried all the way there. When we pulled up beside Abby's grave, I grabbed some kleenex and we both got out of the van, and then held each other tight as we shared our grief. I wiped our tears and kissed Jack's face, and after a few minutes (of swatting mosquitoes) we turned to walk back to the van. Halfway there, I turned back. I couldn't leave her. I squatted down beside her grave and I put my hand over the top of her solar light to make it turn on. As long as my hand was there on top of the light, it stayed on. I told her I loved her, tucked our tear-soaked kleenex in beside her flowers, and pulled my hand away from the light, turning it back off.
Jack and I sat in the van and cried, and Jack told me he wanted to go back and play those 7 hours of her life, rewinding them over and over again. We waited in the van until the sun went down and the sky was dark enough that her solar light came on. When I first saw the tiny glow inside the light, I watched and waited as the tiny glow grew and got brighter, until her light was fully illuminated.
The night that Abby was born, I held her warm wet body in my arms and wept with joy as I wiped her face, talked to her, and waited for her light to come on. Her light stayed dim, and as the sun came up that morning, her light went out forever.
