Rain in Dresden trip - Mission four
To read mission three HERE
MISSION FOUR - To get home safe and - if possible - not to cry while saying bye.
Oh well, the last day had "finally" come. I was not in a mood for anything, nor even talkative. Probably I was kinda bitchy and I am now sorry for everyone who had to be with me in these moments. Why was I like this? Three reasons.
First - I didn't find my phone charger. Oh well I really have no money at all, but sure, buying new phone charger was only a question of few days, but still - it made me really down. My phone was almost off, I had to be alone in Dresden for more then 3 hours, then for more than 2 hours in a bus and then I had to talk to my friends to arrange a meeting. How? I really was kinda angry. Never thought that a cable can just dissappear, but well, with my luck, things like this are kinda normal. Now I'm just laughing about it, but at that time, I was really angry.
Second - The end of this trip just made me to realize that it's all already gone. That the event I was totally excited about is already in the past. That I already met THAT person (Rain I mean) and I was not even able to have a clear mind to remember it clearly, not even to tell him all these things I wanted to. It already WAS and probably never WILL be again. You may think I am strange. Everything once pass. And yes, everytime I feel bad when something is at it's ending. I am probably more nostalgic person then I seem to be.
Third - Saying good bye to my new friends. Hm, yeah. We just spent few days together. Yeah, with some of them I spoke only rarely. But once someone is my friend (never mind if it's just for five minutes, five days or five years) I hate to say goodbye and be far away. Once someone is my friend, he just IS. 'Cause I just love all of my friends. As much as I can. And now I knew that all these new friends I met will go their way and with some of them I'll probably never meet again. It's just not fair. And I don't like this kind of situation....
SO that's why I was bitchy. I really was, dang. Bad morning I guess... But after all, when we got out to sit somewhere near the station, I started to feel better. Charger - whatever. Rain? At least I have memories. Friends? I was still with them, so no reason to be bitchy. Through we didn't talk a lot at all, that last day, I enjoyed it (as I said, I like to "observe" people^^). We had some fun in some bakery shop or what was that and then we got to the station. Girls bought some newspapers with Rain (Gosh I so wish I could understand it ^^), then we were waiting a bit and then the time came. Oh yeah, I was SOOOO holding myself back (I didn't want to cry infront of people heh)... I said the last "Goodbye" to everyone, saw girls getting on their train and then I went out as fast as I could to not to see the train leaving.
I bought some food and went to the bench in some small park close to the bus stop. Ate my food and just was waiting. When I thought about all these amazing days, I got teary again, so after about hour and half of waiting I went to the bus stop, sat on some foot-stone or what was that and continued my waiting, while thinking that watching people will stop my eyes to get teary. I was still "observing" around, watching people come and go, thinking about nothing.
Then I saw some guy who came to the bus stop and started to seek for something. Well I turned on the other way, 'cause I really was not in a mood to talk to someone (in a situation if he would ask me for something, since he obviosly needed to find something). Actually, it didn't help. After while he came to me with "Excuse me?" so I looked at him with "yes?". He asked if it is an international bus stop. Well I said I hope so. I was sure it IS but actually I couldn't find a name of my bus company in there too... But since that was the place where we got there, I guessed it will also be place to leave. So I told him. He asked for what bus am I waiting. I said "Student agency" and it turned out that he came for the same bus (I think it was around one hour before leave? Not really sure about the time). So I thought he will just stay there and wait too, but he actually sat next to me and started to talk. I was surprised first, didn't expect any chatty people, but it was nice to talk with someone and laugh and don't think about the fact that the trip is ending. We was talking about random things, where do we come from (he was from Singapore), what do we do, about dogs and such... Later it started to rain (what a nostalgy :D Rain came to say goddbye too :D), so we went to hide under some roof and continued chatting. I must to say that I had some fun ^^
Then the bus came. So we sat to our seats. In the bus I was watching some movie (17 again) which also made me laugh. When we got out of the bus, the guy said he is staying, waiting for another bus. I was about to get an underground and finally get home and then to meet my friends, so I just said bye and left (Another last "bye" in that day... I guess I should start to call Saturdays as a "Bye-days" from now on) In the underground I kinda realized that it's a bit weird to chat with someone for kinda long time and not even know each others names :D Well, whatever. The underground was as full as never, but finally I got out and home. Then I went to have some drink with my darlings from here, was talking about these days again, enjoying some fun and also to hear my language again...
That's it. Four days. Probably ones of these most beautiful days in my life ^^ Four missions. And all four of them - SUCCEED!
So, the last goodbye, Rain in Dresden trip - I will miss it all, but memories remain <3
MISSION FOUR - To get home safe and - if possible - not to cry while saying bye.
Oh well, the last day had "finally" come. I was not in a mood for anything, nor even talkative. Probably I was kinda bitchy and I am now sorry for everyone who had to be with me in these moments. Why was I like this? Three reasons.
First - I didn't find my phone charger. Oh well I really have no money at all, but sure, buying new phone charger was only a question of few days, but still - it made me really down. My phone was almost off, I had to be alone in Dresden for more then 3 hours, then for more than 2 hours in a bus and then I had to talk to my friends to arrange a meeting. How? I really was kinda angry. Never thought that a cable can just dissappear, but well, with my luck, things like this are kinda normal. Now I'm just laughing about it, but at that time, I was really angry.
Second - The end of this trip just made me to realize that it's all already gone. That the event I was totally excited about is already in the past. That I already met THAT person (Rain I mean) and I was not even able to have a clear mind to remember it clearly, not even to tell him all these things I wanted to. It already WAS and probably never WILL be again. You may think I am strange. Everything once pass. And yes, everytime I feel bad when something is at it's ending. I am probably more nostalgic person then I seem to be.
Third - Saying good bye to my new friends. Hm, yeah. We just spent few days together. Yeah, with some of them I spoke only rarely. But once someone is my friend (never mind if it's just for five minutes, five days or five years) I hate to say goodbye and be far away. Once someone is my friend, he just IS. 'Cause I just love all of my friends. As much as I can. And now I knew that all these new friends I met will go their way and with some of them I'll probably never meet again. It's just not fair. And I don't like this kind of situation....
SO that's why I was bitchy. I really was, dang. Bad morning I guess... But after all, when we got out to sit somewhere near the station, I started to feel better. Charger - whatever. Rain? At least I have memories. Friends? I was still with them, so no reason to be bitchy. Through we didn't talk a lot at all, that last day, I enjoyed it (as I said, I like to "observe" people^^). We had some fun in some bakery shop or what was that and then we got to the station. Girls bought some newspapers with Rain (Gosh I so wish I could understand it ^^), then we were waiting a bit and then the time came. Oh yeah, I was SOOOO holding myself back (I didn't want to cry infront of people heh)... I said the last "Goodbye" to everyone, saw girls getting on their train and then I went out as fast as I could to not to see the train leaving.
I bought some food and went to the bench in some small park close to the bus stop. Ate my food and just was waiting. When I thought about all these amazing days, I got teary again, so after about hour and half of waiting I went to the bus stop, sat on some foot-stone or what was that and continued my waiting, while thinking that watching people will stop my eyes to get teary. I was still "observing" around, watching people come and go, thinking about nothing.
Then I saw some guy who came to the bus stop and started to seek for something. Well I turned on the other way, 'cause I really was not in a mood to talk to someone (in a situation if he would ask me for something, since he obviosly needed to find something). Actually, it didn't help. After while he came to me with "Excuse me?" so I looked at him with "yes?". He asked if it is an international bus stop. Well I said I hope so. I was sure it IS but actually I couldn't find a name of my bus company in there too... But since that was the place where we got there, I guessed it will also be place to leave. So I told him. He asked for what bus am I waiting. I said "Student agency" and it turned out that he came for the same bus (I think it was around one hour before leave? Not really sure about the time). So I thought he will just stay there and wait too, but he actually sat next to me and started to talk. I was surprised first, didn't expect any chatty people, but it was nice to talk with someone and laugh and don't think about the fact that the trip is ending. We was talking about random things, where do we come from (he was from Singapore), what do we do, about dogs and such... Later it started to rain (what a nostalgy :D Rain came to say goddbye too :D), so we went to hide under some roof and continued chatting. I must to say that I had some fun ^^
Then the bus came. So we sat to our seats. In the bus I was watching some movie (17 again) which also made me laugh. When we got out of the bus, the guy said he is staying, waiting for another bus. I was about to get an underground and finally get home and then to meet my friends, so I just said bye and left (Another last "bye" in that day... I guess I should start to call Saturdays as a "Bye-days" from now on) In the underground I kinda realized that it's a bit weird to chat with someone for kinda long time and not even know each others names :D Well, whatever. The underground was as full as never, but finally I got out and home. Then I went to have some drink with my darlings from here, was talking about these days again, enjoying some fun and also to hear my language again...
That's it. Four days. Probably ones of these most beautiful days in my life ^^ Four missions. And all four of them - SUCCEED!
So, the last goodbye, Rain in Dresden trip - I will miss it all, but memories remain <3