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[aznviolinmasta]

i hate having my heart bleed out
i hate not wanting to withstand the pain
i hate how much this is killing me
i hate that i'm letting this hurt me at all
i hate how easily my stomache turns over whenever i even think about it
i hate feeling like i'll never be happy again
and i hate... me

Comments

[anonymous]

You know, you don't have any reason to hate yourself. Sure you may have made some mistakes, but don't we all? If you hate yourself, who can you expect not to hate you? I've never seen this in you, but I've never looked close enough. You've never let me close enough to see everything that goes on. I know you can never be carefree again, once you're deperessed, there's no going back. Never forget all the friends you have, because they'll never forget you. Its ok to let your emotions out. You just can't let them control you. I know you don't, but you can't hold everything in. Of course you know that. I know you're happy now, but always know that there's something to look forward to. Whether you can see it or not, I know in the darkest reaches of my heart that this is true. I hope you do too.