Dead and Breathing

Sep 04, 2010 17:34

I hate this. I'm so uninspired lately. Everything is boring, and nothing seems like it'd be fun: not writing, not games, nothing. I hate it... I feel so dead.

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woodwind September 7 2010, 13:59:09 UTC
I've felt like that for so long. I don't know if it's ever going to change. I'm sorry though. I know it feels awful. :(

By the way: I was wondering, what's a good safe converter program? I've forgotten what format Sony Vegas needs.

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aydean September 7 2010, 16:21:15 UTC
It just sucks, and there's no better way of saying it. It's like, I want to do all this stuff, but I just don't. Conflicting emotions, laziness, boredom, lack of enthusium, not caring... it's just a bummer. I forced myself to write some fanfiction, hoping that would break the feeling. And it worked, but only while I was writing. Once I finished the fic, I was back in the slump... I'm kinda at the point where I'm like, "Just tell me what I have to do to change this, and I'll do it." Just make this feeling end...

Vegas is supposed to be able to handle pretty much any format, except Quicktime. But, I can never get it to read any file other than .wmv, so... I use Zamzar for my conversions [http://www.zamzar.com]. It's been acting strange lately, and I wouldn't say it's the safest site 'cause of the pop-ups galore. :/ But I have yet to find a site that works better than it, despite its annoyance.

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woodwind September 7 2010, 19:41:51 UTC
But the real question is, why did you start feeling that way to begin with? That's what I'm wondering, I don't even know what made me feel like this, maybe no control and nothing ever changing.

Oh, another question and something I've always wondered (since I obviously feel like annoying you today, real sorry about that), but do you actually own Sony Vegas or just got it off the internet 'cause it's really expensive. :/

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aydean September 7 2010, 23:33:16 UTC
I really don't know. :/ I haven't felt like my usual self lately. Usually, the only reason I can't write or make videos or whatever is because I simply don't want to OR I have no ideas. I have no ideas now, but I think my problem is a "what's the point?" kinda attitude. I thought I was done and finished with something, but when I basically had cold water thrown in my face to make me realize I might not be as "finished" as I thought, it kinda shook the foundation I was standing on, and now, I really just don't know what to do. :/ I guess that's the main cause it. But the feelings started before I got that news, so I just don't know...

(It's fine. :]) Movie Studio: I paid for it. It was all mine, but Pro... yeah, I jacked it from the internet. It's shameful and whatnot, but come on, Sony! $400!? Who do you think you are? An asshole like Adobe? o.O

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